给你——生日快乐！

亲爱的，多少年了，还是那么不要脸。 我刚刚是刻意的装傻，生日快乐！

－你知道我在说你－

共同的回忆

“你可以不要一直出现在我们共同的回忆里吗？”

不可以

就是不可以

：）

You don't have to

You don't have to be smart to impress me. Unless you gonna be real smart, then for sure I'll be impressed.

You don't have to be good looking to attract me. Unless you are real good looking, then for sure my eyes would definitely fallen on you.

You don't have to be rich to secure my life. Yet you gotta be passion, bout your dreams and everything that come ahead.

You don't have to buy me flowers. You don't have to worry about me because I know how to take care of myself.

You just need to be funny and make me laugh whenever I feel like the sky is falling down. And you just need to fasten my seatbelt while you pick me up.

You just need to be spontaneous and caring. And that's all!

Thank You

I wasn't ready when you called me and asking about the sub line. And I was in a very bad mood thus I keep yelling at you. I know this is real bad that I wouldn't forgive myself for doing these shits to you... but I just couldn't stop and cut off the line. I hate myself.

You didn't give up on me. You called me up while I was working and this time you sounded angry and asked me who's the person that bully me. I feel protected but I couldn't tell you how I feel at the moment. I told you I was working and hang up the phone. I am sorry for being mean for everything that I did just now. It recalls me the same condition I was having during my first year Uni as I just get my heart broken. You called and tell me you'll always be there and don't I ever reluctant to tell you if I wasn't alright... You always get me misty-eyed you never know.

And this time you called and talking to me nicely that I wanna thank you for being such understanding. You always be the one that comprehend how I feel whenever I get myself piss off. You always there to calm me down whenever I feel my world has turn into gray. I never try to hide anything from you. Most of the time I thought you would notice or knowing me well. Thus I keep everything inside and hoping you would understand me.

I am sorry. And I love you Mum...

Apologise

I am sorry. I am sorry for the way I talk to you. Sorry for always ignoring you when I got mad. Sorry for unable to hand you when you in need. Sorry for not forgiving you even that you already trying to apologise. Yes, I am stubborn.

I am trying not to cry while you were hiding your tears at the back. I am trying not to be vulnerable, not in front of you. But after you left I keep asking myself since when I started to hide my feeling in front of you? Since when I started to treat you so bad that I would cut myself to pieces? Since when that I started to scare of your tears? As it always melts my heart and I guess I just trying not to be way too emotional at this age.

I can't be perfect. I am sorry.

你的眼泪

你的眼泪
经常让我不知所措

深怕一不小心
就会和你擦肩而过

With Y O U

With you

I think about our wedding.
I think about our dream car.
Our dream house, the decoration, the design, the things that you like.

With you

I think about travel and photo hunting with you.
Think about drawing together during our leisure time.
Think about spending the whole day together with no particular place to go.

With you

I think about the right thing to do when I've make you mad.
I think about those words that I've hurt you.
Think about our past that drew us together.
And I always think about you, fondly.

I remember those days that we've been through.
Those words we said.
And those tears that we dropped together.
I remember your promises.
And I remember mine.

And thank God.
That I got Y O U ♥

June 2009@2010

I am blessed.

Thank you my pet.

You make me real♥

♥Hugzzz♥

祝福你

我说过，若有一天，你放弃了，我才会选择放弃。

但我忘了说，若有一天，我比你还要先放手，不是因为有另一个人的出现，也不是因为你不够好。我的离开，纯粹是因为你不够爱我，不像我那么的爱你，也是因为你心里还住着另外一个她……

感情的事，如果没办法找到平衡点，没办法达成共同的理念、共同的梦想，再多的甜蜜幸福，也只是来日的伤痛。

祝你 幸福快乐

I Never Told You

I thought that by keeping the distance between you and me is the better way to let me get rid of you. Yet I just couldn't stand seeing you dwelling in sadness. And the biggest part of your sadness is because of her. As it always cut me into pieces...

I never told you that I was waiting downstair while I called you. I never told you that I was hesitating to call you, not until I saw your car parked downstair. I never told you, because I care.

My Words for Myself

Jasmine,

I know you are healing. Keep yourself back on track and love ya always ♥

xoxo

Expiry Date

I don't hate you. And I would never hate you. Although I do not like the feeling you've made me feel like I am the one that suddenly walk into your life again and mess up everything.

I never intended to take the first move, you should know about it if you know me true. I do not have to courage to tell someone about my affections unless the person take the very first move. You should have know it... but your words did hurt me that night. Even that I know you do not mean it that way, but it sounds so cruel that I feel like crying out loudly. I have been doing a lot of thinking about us recently. I feel sorry for everything we had, indeed. And I feel sorry for unable to keep you forever... Perhaps you do not care about it at all.

I am going to do whatever that you ask for. That is my only promise to keep from now. Every relationship comes with an expiry date. For the day it comes, I know I don't have to hold the promise and I'll release myself, from your embrace.

To My Storyteller

You don't have to say sorry seriously. Well, although it did melted my heart and lessen the pain and hatred deep inside. I am sorry that I never think about you would be feeling inferior to be with me. Indeed, we're from two different world. And I am sorry I pushed you away. I am sorry because I don't know how to express myself.

I understand you don't know how to express yourself as well. I do not blame on you anymore. I shouldn't and I shall not acting like this. Maybe it is just the heartache that watching you're doing fine. And guess it is simply because I no longer sharing your life with. It keeps me wondering how's your life without me.

I am sorry to walk into your life. And thank you for everything we had.

Guardian Angel

You know I would be here. You know sometimes I would thinking about you still. I wish we weren't so young when we met. Yet I am glad we were young, we pictured it wonderfully and been the pure and true partner for each other.

I am glad that I am still in your heart. I have no doubt when you're telling me this, I mean you're the only one that I would believe in out of all other guys that say the same words to me. Maybe I do not trust in guys. Or maybe I always feel like people are changeable, but not you, not the one that I know for real.

How can you tell the feeling I have towards you? How could it be that we're always falling apart? How dare you asked me the same questions once and once again?

The sad thing is, even I got you the answers, I tried to make things clear, I tried to runaway and turn back to you; we would always be the same. Stuck at the same old place, unable to move forward, unable to start all over again. What's wrong with us?

You'll always there whenever I get my heart broken, and like I said, I'll be missing you if you finally found your love and she is no longer me. You are my guardian angel, the only one.

如果没有你 莫文蔚

Imitator

I actually should have post this few days ago. But I was way too busy and headache about the dissertation, hence it took me quite some time to figure it out and finally make up my mind to write something at last.

This ain't going to be a spiritless post of mine. It yet going to be an inspired post. Guess it gotta be a declamation speech of mine towards someone that doesn't respect herself and other people. Perhaps it would be good that I didn't manage to post this few days back. I might say that I ain't gonna be as calm as right now and I can assured you that it gonna be quite rough.

Well, I don't really like somebody copy my post or line and post it into their blog and make it seems like they actually wrote it. This is totally uncool and so annoying. I was so mad the time I found out and text the girl to delete it. Forgot to tell, she's one of my friend, but I think she's no longer categorised into the list. First, she acted like don't get what I mean. Maybe she doesn't know that I viewed her blog as well. Then I text her again and mentioned about the title and everything. Thus she apologised. And guess what, I found that she already made it becomes a private blog the time I wanna check out whether she delete the post from the site. Hell yea! This was getting into my nerves already!

And the worst thing is, she dare to text me still and asking about some stuff. Plus, she rang me some more. And I didn't reply and answer the call at all. I was so going to curse her if I ever pick up the phone. *Grasp* I was pissed off, obviously. Wonder why she would felt that I would be fine.

I could understand if you just wanna share something. But please do not become an imitator and copy everything from other people. I couldn't understand if you do not learn by your own. I wish I could cursing loudly out there. But I do not wish that I turned to be someone that I would be shame on. So, I am learning to be a better person. Ugh...perhaps step by step. I ain't going to forgive you at the moment. Honestly I do not like you from the first day that I get to know you. You're just the faker that I wouldn't let into my life. Maybe you have your reason not to show your true self to others. I just couldn't accept your attitude and your perceptions, especially the way you handle with relationship. I mean all kind of relationship. Don't get me wrong in this.

Duh...what a post. Freaking loco.

BirthdaY GreeTing

Happy BirthdaY Babe ♥
Almost forgot your birthday...

XOXO

From:

-Your beloved Aunt-

Miss Dependent

I guess none of us wanted to be Miss Independent.

Remember the time when you asked me to get out of those shits? I was in a very dejected mood. As I used to have somebody to share my life with, it's hard for me to get rid of the person in a sudden. Although I know there is impossible for us to have a brighter future, I just couldn't help myself falling into his sincerity. He always there when I torn myself apart. And he was the one that brighten up my life when I dwelled into darkness. Ain't that we always hope for someone like that?

The cruel thing about life is, it makes us indulging in our short-term imagination and wake us up in the ugly reality. I don't know how to put it into words. But you have to trust me, although it's the toughest thing to do but I am moving on...

---Moving forward---

爱多少早知道 殷悦

也许认识我的时候你就知道　你对我的爱有多少

It used to be Y O U

You never tell me how you went it through when I pushed you away.

I never tell you, how it hurts and the pain that I am going through right now. Watching you started your life afresh, with someone who loves you.

---Heartbroken---