Helpless

Please give me strength to walk through this...

I am trying to have faith in it. Unfortunately i found no reason to hold the belief. I could not understand still... why people could change dramatically as time pass by...

If God did send me an angel to come across my life, why He took it away from me right now?

Craps

Found this silly poster in library. Wondering why they dunwan to get a nicer wan since there are many talented students inside our campus..

I get the maxis job for two weeks. So i got three part-time job in this month. And i have to finish two assignments and two presetation by next week. So i am going to spend my mid term break break here in Penang. Got lotsa stuff that need to be settled during the break includes ptptn stuff...

Apparently i can't spend time for my sis. Feel bad cos i asked her to back during my convocation but i don't have time hanging out with her. Sigh...

People do change i know.. but i rather that i could live in the past sometimes. I rather that i back to the days when we were still young, ignored all those norms and problems that might defeated us and make us more aware bout the cruel of the reality.

我的Me原色

觉得还蛮准的，所以就PO在这里^^

http://w3.mecolor.com.tw/find.html

Me原色人格簡易分析

【Me原色組合】自覺藍色 + 潛質靛色 + 原生黃色 【通曉型】著重事情的合理與公平，通曉世事的人。 正義感及道德感強烈，所有事情均重視合理與公平，在沒瞭解事情的發展始末前，不會妄下判斷。重視理想，認為人一定要努力達成理想，有時會過度的理想化，甚至有些好高騖遠。

【通曉型‧Me原色組合色彩本質】　
。自 覺 藍 色：知　性　
。潛 質 靛 色：內在判斷　
。原 生 黃 色：歡　喜

【通曉型的外顯行為】個性光明磊落，不喜歡檯面下的小動作，覺得事情攤開來講比較踏實，毫不隱晦，不太認同模糊隱晦曖昧不明的狀況。坦率直言、不善交際，有時會讓人覺得不夠圓滑甚至受到曲解；很少曲意奉承，大部分時間都是有話直說，坦蕩而有禮。 天生具正義感和道德感，對世上發生的不公不義非常義憤填膺，好替弱小打抱不平，有時甚至會死咬著不放，只為爭取一個「公平」。

【通曉型的潛意識】非常重視事情合理性，深信要解決問題必須找出問題的根源，快速地對症下藥，「擒賊要擒王」是一貫守則，給人做事明快、有魄力的印象。認為人的一生當中，知識和生活經驗都非常的重要，會採取積極的態度吸收新知、累積人生經驗。比較不在意世俗價值觀的名利，認為名氣只是虛幻的過眼雲煙，而金錢只要夠用就好，不需要大富大貴。有時會過度的理想化，可能終其一生都在追尋理想，甚至有些好高騖遠。

【通曉型的靈能意識】對於生命充滿著熱情和純粹的天真，並有百分之百的理想性。相信世界是美好的，每件新事物都是嶄新的契機，對現實社會的黑暗面感到不可思議，甚至不能接受。堅強而有韌性。對自己有著純真的自信，相信自己，也相信人總有光明的一面；對感情充滿幻想，生命當中人發生的情感很重要，不但非常重視，且努力真心的維繫；在意伴侶的忠誠，覺得兩人的關係必須是無欺瞞的，才能夠平穩、長久的走下去。有絕對忠誠和真誠的心，多半是愛作夢也愛努力圓夢的人；只要看到事情的光明和希望，會勇氣十足地給予伙伴最強有力的援手。

Month of $$$

Feeling like my pure mind is going as dry as fiddlestick. Still, I have no idea what to do for my presentation on review and critique of journal articles in Prof Ramli’s class. Vaguely I feel like I would unable to do it well…I find no interesting research to talk about till now. Some already working on their second assignment, I am hanging here still.

I read an article about RPK few days back. I am quite fascinating about the love story within him and his wife, plus his passionate and bravery to reveal the reality of our society, our country. Apparently, the phenomenon in media industry nowadays disappointed most of the people in our country. Thus, people keen to look for alternative source that may voice their freedom and the truth. It is truly sad when people no longer believe in the daily reports in newspapers nowadays. If there is someone that we should blame for, I wonder if he would notice the consequences that he had brought to our country.

Sometimes I feel like my life went like a dream. I get most of the things that I keen to have and I surrounded by those people that I care for. Somehow, I feel like I need to get something off the ground and lead a different path. I am facing another intersection at the moment. Deep down I know what I am going to choose, just I need to pluck up enough courage to make it real.

I asked my friends need not to buy me flower during my convocation. As long as they are able to appear on that day, I think I would overwhelm with gratitude for their present. Flowers cannot be last forever, but friendship does. I am glad that I will be surrounded by those I care for especially my family members that share the moment together.

August seems like a working month for me. I am so craving for money since i haven't get my study loan still. I got two part-time jobs in hand and almost work everyday till end of month. Surprisingly Lala just introduce me another job from mid of August till mid of September. I am quite fascinated bout the pay… just worried whether I can focus in my study at the same time.

Talk to Shin a lot while we were working together during weekends. It is feeling so good when you spent the time with someone that understands you really well…^^