Mind-wandering

I can't sleep. Perhaps the late night mocha did wake me up. Thus I light up a cig, hoping that I might be fall in sleep in a while. But then it remains the same. I am lying on the bed. My mind wanders, and I am lost, I guess.

It'd been end of month. And I've been a mess since I started this very new semester. I've been so busy searching for my supervisor, part-time job, journals reading, searching for new housemate and bla bla bla. Hell ya, my daily schedule in August already fully occupied. So I don't think that I would have time to take a break. I do not have time. And I shouldn't have the excuses to rest my mind...

Talked to Dr Mus today and he can't be my supervisor for the dissertation. Perhaps I did a very lousy proposal, or maybe he is busy since he don't even have time to check his inbox for almost two weeks after I sent him my proposal. Just when I wanna turn to Prof Zaharom, I received his email again. And he said he talked to Pn Wang and she would be interested to be my supervisor... So I was puzzled. I am so thankful to Dr Mus for recommended me even that he couldn't guide me for the dissertation. After a very long and thoughtful consideration, I text Prof Zaharom and he replied me 'yes' for an answer within a minute. Felt grateful for having those kind-hearted lecturers around. Yet I can feel that my nightmare is coming ahead...

It is just part of my life that keep haunting me day by day. I wish I could attain something great in future. Although it might be hard sometimes. I shall not blaming myself for the path that'd been chosen.

For those who are concerned about me, thanks for your love. I am doing great...hopefully:)

Yasmin Ahmad

I guess those that love her movies and Ads definitely would be depressing after knowing that she passed away last night.

To be frank, I only get to know her since the day I became a Communication undergraduate in USM. Although I watched her Ads for Petronas like thousand times before, but I never expect who is the director that successfully made me misty-eyed each time I watch those TV commercials. And being a communication undergrad really brought me into her world, her thoughts and mind that we both know those inequalities that actually happen in our society but no one would dare to question in public.

I extend my heartfelt condolences to her family.

R.I.P.

Me@Converse

Six and left one at hometown.

Gotta grab the God damn RED colour very soon.

ILL-TiMeD

First, I got late payment penalty RM200 for the semester fees.

Second, I went to the library, with the purpose to apply for library locker. Then I just realised that it'd been closed few days back. *SIGH*

What a life... Why everything seem ill-timed for me? Why the whole world suddenly turning upside-down around me? Why I got this kind of feeling that I just couldn't fit in anymore...

I felt like I've been languishing for weeks since the day my heart torn into pieces...

Insomnia

I guess that I just couldn't get rid of you.

-Defeated-

Dear Sis

I do not wish you to walk out of my life anymore.

Simply because that

I love you, like I always do.

Ultraviolet Catastrophe by The Drop

I want this album badly.

-Desire-

Goodbye June2009

Long Lost Passport

Those that did updating my current occurrence definitely knew that I was searching for my passport since I moved to the new roof in May. I had been searching around for almost two months long yet I couldn't catch it anywhere around my new house and back to my hometown. I even came to the final decision to make a police report to apply for a new passport. Simply because I don't want to screw up my travel plans end of the year to Bangkok, Vietnam and Cambodia. I am longing for a vacation and extremely excited about the backpacking around Vietnam and Cambodia with Yee Guan in November.

Guess it is my lucky day tonight. I just having a really bad and completely sleepless night. Thus, I tried to search around in bedroom, having a little hope that I might catch it somewhere in the end of the day. Thank God that I finally found it in a box together with my notes and journals... *Wink*

Breathing

Sometimes I would just lay beside you and watch you sleep.
Then I would check to see if you are still breathing.

And I am doing this every now and then...

Purple Witch

You lend me shoulders when I was depressed last time.
And I miss you so so much that I wish you would be here this time while I am losing the tracks.

Maybe I am just a little down.
Maybe I just needed someone to talk to.

Guess I depended on you, too much.

Abnormal

I am trying hard not to fall into pieces.

Wondering why you could just acting like this.

You make it seems so easy and normal continue to move on.
And I am the one that so abnormal after all.

I think I am. Yes I am...