I’m not in the mood recently. Puzzled bout many stuff around me… I shouldn’t be like this I know…since final exam is just round the corner. Feel like accomplished nth again this semester.
I’d been got through a busy semester with numerous assignments and I never really do my revision during my leisure time. Seemed I give up myself to continue learning…I hate myself being like this…defeated by myself… I don’t want mum feel disappointed bout me…I tried so hard keep seeking for my dream and my path then I get lost in the halfway…I was unable to assure myself bout what that really meant for me. Perhaps I shouldn’t keep thinking bout it…but then I’m afraid that I might miss something that significant for me…
I got the opportunity to carry on my industry training in New Straits Times, KL for 8 weeks. It’s surprised me cause I din write down NST as my choices when I applied it…and it did delighted me all day long when I get to knew it. I wasn’t brave enough to write it down when I fill the application form cause I think that I’m not qualify to get my training there… Yet, it’s my favorite English newspaper indeed. I kept sending sms and called my mum, sis and my intimates after I knew it…I’m so happy and start to worry a lot…I’m afraid of many incidents and problems that might be occurred. I’m worrying bout every thing… thinks I’m lacking of self-confident. Yes I am…I realize it since the day I step in USM…
Felt the emptiness inside… I got myself drunk on Friday night… I knew myself seemed like dimwit… but then I just tend to get myself drunk…I think I’m demanding it cause I tend to escape from some unsolvable problems… my dimwittedness led me astray…I’m getting lost…
Saturday, 31 March 2007
Wednesday, 28 March 2007
The Prayer~andrea bocelli~
The Prayer by Celine Dion and Andrea Bocelli
I pray you'll be our eyes, and watch us where we go
And help us to be wise in times when we don't know
Let this be our prayer, when we lose our way
Lead us to the place, guide us with your grace
To a place where we'll be safe
La luce che tu hai
I pray we'll find your light
nel cuore resteraand
hold it in our hearts
a ricordarci che
When stars go out each night,
eterna stella sei
The light you have
I pray we'll find your light
will be in the heart
and hold it in our hearts.
to remember us that
When stars go out each night,
you are eternal star
Nella mia preghiera
Let this be our prayer
quanta fede c'e
when shadows fill our day
How much faith there's
Let this be our prayer in my prayer
when shadows fill our day
Lead us to a place, guide us with your grace
Give us faith so we'll be safe
Sognamo un mondo senza piu violenza
un mondo di giustizia e di speranza
Ognuno dia la mano al suo vicino
Simbolo di pace, di fraternita
We dream a world without violence
a world of justice and faith.
Everyone gives the hand to his neighbours
Symbol of peace, of fraternity
La forza che ci da
We ask that life be kind
e il desiderio che
and watch us from above
ognuno trovi amor
We hope each soul will find
intorno e dentro se
another soul to love
The force his gives us
We ask that life be kind
is wish that
and watch us from above
everyone finds love
We hope each soul will find
around and inside
another soul to love
Let this be our prayer
Let this be our prayer, just like every child
Need to find a place, guide us with your grace
Give us faith so we'll be safe
Need to find a place, guide us with your grace
Give us faith so we'll be safe
E la fede che
hai acceso in noi,
sento che ci salvera
It's the faith
you light in us
I feel it will save us
it's a nice song, indeed. dunno why suddenly fond to andrea's songs recently...i bought his autobiography last year but i never reali listen to his songs. wat he d got through reali inspire me lots..especially how he get through n struggled when he found dat he became blind..and how he became a famous singer. strongly recomment this song Ti Amo, Besame Mucho, Vivo Per Lei and so forth..^^
I pray you'll be our eyes, and watch us where we go
And help us to be wise in times when we don't know
Let this be our prayer, when we lose our way
Lead us to the place, guide us with your grace
To a place where we'll be safe
La luce che tu hai
I pray we'll find your light
nel cuore resteraand
hold it in our hearts
a ricordarci che
When stars go out each night,
eterna stella sei
The light you have
I pray we'll find your light
will be in the heart
and hold it in our hearts.
to remember us that
When stars go out each night,
you are eternal star
Nella mia preghiera
Let this be our prayer
quanta fede c'e
when shadows fill our day
How much faith there's
Let this be our prayer in my prayer
when shadows fill our day
Lead us to a place, guide us with your grace
Give us faith so we'll be safe
Sognamo un mondo senza piu violenza
un mondo di giustizia e di speranza
Ognuno dia la mano al suo vicino
Simbolo di pace, di fraternita
We dream a world without violence
a world of justice and faith.
Everyone gives the hand to his neighbours
Symbol of peace, of fraternity
La forza che ci da
We ask that life be kind
e il desiderio che
and watch us from above
ognuno trovi amor
We hope each soul will find
intorno e dentro se
another soul to love
The force his gives us
We ask that life be kind
is wish that
and watch us from above
everyone finds love
We hope each soul will find
around and inside
another soul to love
Let this be our prayer
Let this be our prayer, just like every child
Need to find a place, guide us with your grace
Give us faith so we'll be safe
Need to find a place, guide us with your grace
Give us faith so we'll be safe
E la fede che
hai acceso in noi,
sento che ci salvera
It's the faith
you light in us
I feel it will save us
it's a nice song, indeed. dunno why suddenly fond to andrea's songs recently...i bought his autobiography last year but i never reali listen to his songs. wat he d got through reali inspire me lots..especially how he get through n struggled when he found dat he became blind..and how he became a famous singer. strongly recomment this song Ti Amo, Besame Mucho, Vivo Per Lei and so forth..^^
Friday, 23 March 2007
ThE CoNcluSioN
It had been a very long time I never update my blog here. Here I am right now….just trying to make a conclusion bout my current occurrence and grumbling bout it over here.
Ok…seems like I had get through a hard time since I back from my hometown last month. Busy for those flooding assignments, presentation, test, meeting plus blah blah blah… though I still got one more assignment that need to be hand up, but now I finally released and I’ll back to my hometown tomorrow evening. Suddenly miss my mom and my niece so much…they must be quite lonely there without me…haha..
My sis paying me a visit when she back from s’pore few weeks ago celebrates for her daughter’s birthday. And I’m quite surprised when I saw my mom appeared in front of me… wow…it’s a tender feeling that warmed my heart…it really did. Thanks ya mom… some more bring lots of biscuits, fruits and birthday cake for me and said that find no dustbin such as me that can finish all the food at home. I think I’m being pampered by y’all… sis, thanks for what you did for me since I ever get connected with ya back… I always love you… you do know bout it right?
And for my dearest niece, once again, happy belated birthday!!! Well, you never know those words that I dedicate for ya… you’re too young to know bout it…haha. Yet, I still tend to write something for ya here… you’re the only babe that I got right now. And you’ll remain as the special one for me… I miss your kiss then…;p and this song which your mom used to sang for me is dedicate for ya right now ~happy birthday to you, you are born in the zoo, like a monkey and a kangaroo, happy birthday to you~ Am I stupid?
Watch many movies within this month… The pursuit of happyness, 300, Turistas, Stomp the yard, Pan’s labyrinth and the Spanish movies in usm during the Spanish film festival. Different movie bring out different thoughts…hope I’ll get the right influences…Awaits for Perfume, The hitcher, The reaping, Hannibal rising and so on… think I become a movie freak d… I found myself not in the mood while I was immersed myself into those flooding assignments. Sorry to those I had ever overlook bout your feeling and pay no attention to it. Sorry…indeed. Especially my buddies, loony, pangwu and those that I din mention your name. I’m very emotional…it getting worst when I feel stress… pangwu, sorry…my laziness caused me help you nth this sem…once again, sorry k… and thanks for those who understand bout it.. thanks a lot.
I tend to find someone listen to me here… but then I found no one that ready and willing to do so. Or maybe I can’t feel the connection then I don’t know how to speak out bout what that have been bothering me recently… I can’t make up my mind which decision should I take… I’m still hesitating bout it…and you’re the person that implicated me into this kinda condition... I thought everything will be fine since we never meet each other for a very long time, never talk to each other for ages, never get connected since the last msg that I had send to you.. I thought we’ll gonna be fren like this forever… but then ur words deluded me…once again. What really you want between us… Can u just make it clear instead of saying those words that confused me…? Don’t ever say sorry to me… not after you break my heart… think I need a good listener here… or maybe a great companion to drink together…
Ok…seems like I had get through a hard time since I back from my hometown last month. Busy for those flooding assignments, presentation, test, meeting plus blah blah blah… though I still got one more assignment that need to be hand up, but now I finally released and I’ll back to my hometown tomorrow evening. Suddenly miss my mom and my niece so much…they must be quite lonely there without me…haha..
My sis paying me a visit when she back from s’pore few weeks ago celebrates for her daughter’s birthday. And I’m quite surprised when I saw my mom appeared in front of me… wow…it’s a tender feeling that warmed my heart…it really did. Thanks ya mom… some more bring lots of biscuits, fruits and birthday cake for me and said that find no dustbin such as me that can finish all the food at home. I think I’m being pampered by y’all… sis, thanks for what you did for me since I ever get connected with ya back… I always love you… you do know bout it right?
And for my dearest niece, once again, happy belated birthday!!! Well, you never know those words that I dedicate for ya… you’re too young to know bout it…haha. Yet, I still tend to write something for ya here… you’re the only babe that I got right now. And you’ll remain as the special one for me… I miss your kiss then…;p and this song which your mom used to sang for me is dedicate for ya right now ~happy birthday to you, you are born in the zoo, like a monkey and a kangaroo, happy birthday to you~ Am I stupid?
Watch many movies within this month… The pursuit of happyness, 300, Turistas, Stomp the yard, Pan’s labyrinth and the Spanish movies in usm during the Spanish film festival. Different movie bring out different thoughts…hope I’ll get the right influences…Awaits for Perfume, The hitcher, The reaping, Hannibal rising and so on… think I become a movie freak d… I found myself not in the mood while I was immersed myself into those flooding assignments. Sorry to those I had ever overlook bout your feeling and pay no attention to it. Sorry…indeed. Especially my buddies, loony, pangwu and those that I din mention your name. I’m very emotional…it getting worst when I feel stress… pangwu, sorry…my laziness caused me help you nth this sem…once again, sorry k… and thanks for those who understand bout it.. thanks a lot.
I tend to find someone listen to me here… but then I found no one that ready and willing to do so. Or maybe I can’t feel the connection then I don’t know how to speak out bout what that have been bothering me recently… I can’t make up my mind which decision should I take… I’m still hesitating bout it…and you’re the person that implicated me into this kinda condition... I thought everything will be fine since we never meet each other for a very long time, never talk to each other for ages, never get connected since the last msg that I had send to you.. I thought we’ll gonna be fren like this forever… but then ur words deluded me…once again. What really you want between us… Can u just make it clear instead of saying those words that confused me…? Don’t ever say sorry to me… not after you break my heart… think I need a good listener here… or maybe a great companion to drink together…
Saturday, 10 March 2007
Te BusQuE
Te Busque (feat. Juanes) by NELLY FURTADO
I've been high I've been low
I've been fast I've been slow
I've had nowhere to go
Missed the bus missed the show
I've been down on my luck
I've felt like giving up
My life locked in a trunk
When it hurt way too much
I needed a reason to live
Some love inside me to give
I couldn't rest I had to keep on searching
Te busque de bajo de las piedras y no te-encontre
En la manana fria y en la noche te-busque
Hasta enloquecer
Pero tu llegaste a mi vida como una luz
Sanando las heridas de mi corazon
Haciendo me-sentir vivo otra vez
I've been too sad to speak and too tired to eat
Been too lonely to sing the devil cut off my wings
I've been hurt by my past but I feel the future
In my dreams and it lasts I wake up I'm not sure
I wanted to find the light something just didn't feel right
I needed an answer to end all my searching
I look in the mirror the picture's getting clearer
I wanna be myself but does the world really need her
I ache for this earth I stopped going to church
See God in the trees makes me fall to my knees
My depression keeps building like a cup overfilling
My heart so rigid I keep it in the fridge
It hurts so bad that I can't dry my eyes
Cuz they keep on refillin' with the tears that I cry...
What a sad and depressing song, the spanish part means: I've searched you under the stones but I didn't find you. In the cold morning and at night, I was looking for you until freaking out. But you came into my life like a light you've healed the wounds of my heart. You’ve made me feel alive once more…
Obviously I’m not in the mood recently. Found nothing that may cheer me up…even become slow-witted. Being defeated by those numerous assignments… tend to update blog for so long but always failed to finish it…perhaps I’m not in the mood to do so… got so much things that I wanna talk about but I dunno where to get it start…so hard to find the words to say…
Seems like I’ve risked everything... risk losing everything I got right now. I looked at the screen and I waited for your reply…seems like forever…I finally know how much I’m missing you…I’m so glad that I found you. Perhaps what u said is right…and I’ll try to do as what you told me. I will try…I don’t have the right. What else should I say…nobody knows it...i've been hurt by my past but i feel the future...there is only one happiness in life, to love n be loved.
I've been high I've been low
I've been fast I've been slow
I've had nowhere to go
Missed the bus missed the show
I've been down on my luck
I've felt like giving up
My life locked in a trunk
When it hurt way too much
I needed a reason to live
Some love inside me to give
I couldn't rest I had to keep on searching
Te busque de bajo de las piedras y no te-encontre
En la manana fria y en la noche te-busque
Hasta enloquecer
Pero tu llegaste a mi vida como una luz
Sanando las heridas de mi corazon
Haciendo me-sentir vivo otra vez
I've been too sad to speak and too tired to eat
Been too lonely to sing the devil cut off my wings
I've been hurt by my past but I feel the future
In my dreams and it lasts I wake up I'm not sure
I wanted to find the light something just didn't feel right
I needed an answer to end all my searching
I look in the mirror the picture's getting clearer
I wanna be myself but does the world really need her
I ache for this earth I stopped going to church
See God in the trees makes me fall to my knees
My depression keeps building like a cup overfilling
My heart so rigid I keep it in the fridge
It hurts so bad that I can't dry my eyes
Cuz they keep on refillin' with the tears that I cry...
What a sad and depressing song, the spanish part means: I've searched you under the stones but I didn't find you. In the cold morning and at night, I was looking for you until freaking out. But you came into my life like a light you've healed the wounds of my heart. You’ve made me feel alive once more…
Obviously I’m not in the mood recently. Found nothing that may cheer me up…even become slow-witted. Being defeated by those numerous assignments… tend to update blog for so long but always failed to finish it…perhaps I’m not in the mood to do so… got so much things that I wanna talk about but I dunno where to get it start…so hard to find the words to say…
Seems like I’ve risked everything... risk losing everything I got right now. I looked at the screen and I waited for your reply…seems like forever…I finally know how much I’m missing you…I’m so glad that I found you. Perhaps what u said is right…and I’ll try to do as what you told me. I will try…I don’t have the right. What else should I say…nobody knows it...i've been hurt by my past but i feel the future...there is only one happiness in life, to love n be loved.
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