Not to cry, one last time.

I wish I could smile and give you the best wishes when I saw your photo with her.
But I guess it just another heart broken.
As I couldn't take, and finally remove you from the friend list.

It was something that you never did it to us.
And there were those promises that being forgotten.

You shouldn't have walk into my life.
And I shouldn't have take it seriously.

---Erasing the memories---

You got Me

Although I'm trying hard to ignore the reminder that Denise had post in her blog. I guess I shall write something about my current life, as I do hope that I would manage to get at least one post within this month... Owh wait, perhaps two?

I started to work for my cousin as a supervisor of their new shop in Queensbay. So you could possibly catch me almost everyday in the mall. Sigh... It's a very new learning process because sometimes things coming up and I have to settle by my own. At the same time, I have to finish the dissertation that I've left out ever since I went to the backpacking. A lot of things tangled up my mind... I wonder whether I would be able to graduate in the coming August. Anyhow I must get it done within the duedate that I've set. I don't want to waste another year to make it real...

As I don't feel like update my blog in the past few weeks, simply because I still in a very dejected mood. I already have many spiritless posts and if I ever post something it must be something depressed. Sigh... Try to occupied by tons of workload and try to cheer up by those songs that I've been addicted to.

Something that I would like to tell you is, I can't stop missing you.

It used to be Y O U

You never tell me how you went it through when I pushed you away.

I never tell you, how it hurts and the pain that I am going through right now. Watching you started your life afresh, with someone who loves you.

---Heartbroken---

Dreams Together

I admitted that I always need someone to scold me then only I would move forward when I stucked at somewhere in the intersection. And thank you for being the one that nagging about me while I still daydreaming here.

It's funny because we always far away from each other, but still I would listen to you as the one that motivating me to move on. We have so many dreams ever since we met each other in our secondary school. So many goals to attain and a lot more unrealistic dreams that we wish to have in real life. Most of the time I feel we both are similar in many ways especially our thoughts and especially we always wish to live at the moment and enjoy every moment that we have right now. Perhaps we might doubtful about ourselves sometimes, doubtful that whether we're just wasting time and doing nothing in the end of the day. But we do know that, it's just the inner fierce within ourselves that afraid to lose something great in life. Yes I do jealous seeing you dwelling yourself in the country that I ever wish to further my study. Meanwhile, as a friend of yours, I do wishing you all the best and glad to see you finally get away from here and get to learn something new and live through the most wonderful thing in life.

I miss you. Most of the time it recalls me to our good old days. We used to have so many dreams in our younger days. And most of it shattered into pieces... Could we just fix it?

Underneath anger is hurt, but underneath hurt is love

I send my greatest apologies, for not being here for so long. I am going to miss out so many things here while I try to enjoying my life out there. So much fun I had have; so much heart-broken as it reduced me to tears; and sometimes it made me realised that I didn't live a real life. I guess when you meet great people and they just passing by and continue to move on their own life, you probably would started to wonder...

I don't have time to update blog ever since I back from the long vacation. Each time I tried to write down something, it seemed like nothing left in my mind. Each time I tried to look back, I just couldn't find a way to move on. It is weird when you thought that you finally bring in something great in life, and then they just slip away. You don't have time to re-think about it, you don't even have time to rewind the memories. It is true that we can't... and I wish I won't be stuck at here. It's already feel like forever.

Ended the one month job; went to Singapore to meet up Sis, Eguan and Jimmy; spent time with Matt when he was in Penang; attended Sim Chee & Bob's wedding dinner; celebrated my birthday. What else that comes ahead?

It is indeed sad I didn't receive your greeting for the whole day. I admit that I've been waiting and waiting and it ends up nothing. I tried to think positively and not to act silly all the times. And yes I was drunk. I just feel like talk to you and I really did. Sigh... Although I know I could have make it alright between you and me, but I just hate to think about our current relationship. I never say I hate you. Oh hell, I did when I was drunk. And I couldn't tell you I love you, though. You don't have to apology for the whole damn things between us. I just couldn't forgive you for walk into my life twice, and act like there's nothing after all. Don't ever tell me that you're upset for the split up. I know you always have those people who love you to hang out with. I wonder if you ever realise that you might broke their hearts as well in the end of the day.

And yes, I hate you.

Drunken Night

I was real drunk last night.

And so do you.

Happy New Year 2010

I'll be back very soon.

After 3rd Jan my part time job would be ended and I'll blog. That's a promise!

Wait for me.

XOXO