SomeTimes

Indeed sleepy n tired right now. Yet can't get to bed cos still need to prepare for works tmr. Quite nervous when i think bout i need to go for assign..i'm afraid dat i might miss out some points, can't understand the conversations and unexpected situation..i'm chicken..yea, Denise i'm same as u..LOL

Well, Denise..glad dat u get da opportunity to study at Chubu. Jealousy filled my heart..but not bcos u get it, jz bcos i never step up to get mine then i felt like i'm a loser. I keen to do so much thing..keen to become sum1 better..keen to become somebody. Perhaps wat i'd did is not yet enuff through the journey to pursuit my dreams. Gurl..everything wil goin fine..love ya n do remember buy me sumthing special in Japan..^^

Seeing ppl struggle in a relationship is not a good feeling. Especially it's those who close to u.. Love indeed tired ppl out. I can't say much..it's not my right to say anything to make y'all better. It's depends on both of ya to build this relationship..make sure dat's no regret, no harm, no hard feeling after all. Sumtimes i wish to run away cos i can't stand to involve into it. But fren, if ya decide wanna keep on trying n keep on hurting one another..then i'll by ur side. Dun ever hurt urself when u upset.. i'm sad cos i can't help but only can lend u my shoulders n ears.. Choose the right path..the one dat worth n deserve for ya..think bout all da consequences and aspects. Sumtimes we need to sacrifice sumthing or loss to achieve a better life in future..

Went out wiv Lala today at KLCC.. Talk lots bout my recent life and feelings after retained so much in my mind. Almost burnout i think.. Thanks fren, at least i felt release after talk to u. I learn to cope wiv my problems..perhaps i fuss too much bout my life. U made me feel safe to talk everything to u..indeed thanks for listening. It meant lots for me..a problematic person..^^

I talk lots bout sum1 recently to my frens. Not bcos i tend to..jz it's a right time for me to tell when ppl asked me.. U know why i appreciate u in my life? Cos u taught me lots n accept who i am when i was still self-willed n disobedient. I discovered my ugly behaviors n attitudes after know u. U made me realised how my words turned to hurt ppl in return. I keep pushing those who care and love me away..not bcos i wish to..jz i hate to face the hatred.. but i never realise i hurt them, and i knew i did hurt u. Sorry.. No other guy make me feel secure to talk bout everything. U're the only one..and i felt free after i confessed to u all the silly n bad things i did recently in Kl. I'm not a good person i know..and i just wan ya to know how bad i am..wat a fool i am to ruin my life like this. And then i'll move on a better life..i doesn't need anybody to complete me..

There is sumtimes i feel all alone in a crowd. There is sumtimes i feel lost surrounded by ppl. And there is sumtimes i dun understand myself..