My 1st day for internship

It's the 1st day for my internship in NST. Feel like wanna runaway after i reached there.. though i'm reali impressing bout it, bout the people there.. Yet i felt the tension jz filled me unconciously.. i'm damn stress for being there.

I moved to SS2, Pj cos it's more nearer bangsar and easier for me to reach there every morning. Thanks joey for suggesting me to live wiv her. And thanks andrew for the great hospitality dat been given to me.. reali appreciate it..:)

Being here for 5 days.. get sick wiv LRT dat seems unfamiliar for me in the beginning. Hate this kinda life that need to travel lots when tend to go somewhere. I miss pg lots cos i can get to the place dat i wan jz after i think bout it or mention to my buddies.. haiz..

Yet i found sumthing impressed me in KLCC which is kino kuniya bookstore...wow..damn impressing le..lol. Got a variety of reference books for foreign languages, autobiblography dat tempted me. I'm totally immersed myself into it...and i found lots of wars books collection over there..Herng must be like it if he did notice it..LOL

Seems like i'm out of my main point for today. haiz...okok. I'm gotta face the music..focus to the point bout my 1st day internship. Well, as usual..i was nervous..damn nervous. Actually my department is quite easy cos it's focus on entertainment, events, features, some kinda non-heavy article. I tot it gonna be very fun be4 i get to there..then i found i'm totally wrong.

Perhaps i'd been pampered by our lecturers in uni. I think my english is sucks, my communication skill is poor, my self-confident is super low. Sigh... my department head is a woman around 40 sumthing..she's damn COOL. And i found no other colleagues are same age or almost same age wiv me. OMG..obviosly it's a huge age gap between me n them. And perhaps they are well educated then they seems like doesn't reali giv a damn on me..i'd been ignored i think..YES, I AM.

Though they got smiled to me,yet i felt the artificial behavior makes me upset.. Perhaps they think that i'm jz a burden for them, a person that no need to get close for only staying wiv them for 8 weeks long. Haiz..i hate KL. My boss even introduce me to her assistance as 'i get u a new slave'...is dat a joke? She never reali trying to teach me. Yet she ask others...

Then i'd been asked to read the newspaper for my 1st day. To get familiar wiv the assignments dat gonna trown to me..get used to the kinda articles in my department, get used to the flow of stories, the pattern of feature writting that needed and so forth. They din tell me what reali i need to focus. That's what i think when they ask me to read it.. then i spent my time read on the newspaper til i'm not even aware of my lunch time. And u know wat..nobody tell me that i shud go out on that time and nobody ask to be my companion. sigh...i'm damn sad, never been treated in this kinda way when get to a new place. Though i can survive oneself, yet i reali wish some1 beside to on that time. I need sum1 to guide me to walk through this.. Unfortunately, God din send an angel for me..

Then i tried to sms Yaso which is my coursemate who get different department in NST wiv me. And she told me that she's havin lunch wiv senior.. damn sad after saw her msg. Why she got great senior who take care of her yet i got nobody dat care bout me here.. sigh... though it real sad, but Yaso did accompany me for lunch after that. I'll never ever take my lunch on dat time if i really gonna be oneself. Thanks Yaso..T_T

okay..after i bek from my lunch, only my colleague ask me whether i hav my lunch d anot..sigh..wat time d jz wanna ask me dat question..sob sob. Then i continue read my newspaper and think bout nonsense and all the treatment dat had been given..sigh..then i keep blaming myself why i insisted wanna comin over here..

then everythings seems goin well after that when i take my 1st move asked my colleague bout the facilities in office. She show me where is the toilet(well,Yaso only knew it when i told her after our working hours), where i can get my water when it's finished.. and then when almost 4p.m, she assign me to write an feature article based on the press release that'd been given from a hotel in KL which it's bout the dinner and buffer offered of that hotel for mother's day. Thanks God that finally i get something to do..

At least now i'm bz and not time listen to the abstruseness conversation between my boss wiv colleagues and their slang when they are speaking..ok, i admit that i felt envy cos i can't speak they way they are. Then i also got no time to think bout how they treat me whole day long. I tot my working time is till 6 then i finish it bout almost 5. After dat i save it into Ted and leave it to my colleague to edit. then i continue to read my newspaper...Yet i never reali can finish it. Cos i never reali trying to read it...sigh..

Bout 5 sumthing only my colleague told me that i can go bek d cos our working hour is from 9 til 5 only. Though i curious bout it cos the HR said is til 6, yet i dunwan to miss da chance to go bek early. I did asked my colleague when is my offday then she told me that we din work during weekends..hooray~ i'm so delighted bout it cos i only need to work 5 days per weeks and i only need to work 40 days for my internship..though it tooks 8 weeks long. Hope i'm not gonna get suffer in the comin days...hope there wont be any reason for me to staybek for deadline..wish everything gonna be akay in the comin days...

After i talk so much bad bout my working surrounding, felt guilty a bit cos seriously NST is reali impressing. The office is huge and the reporter and editor all seems very intelligent and unpredictable. Perhaps it's the character dat i tend to achieve yet i can't..that's why i feel uneasy when i staying wiv them, i feel myself lack of everythings and feel the emptiness inside. I wish this is the chance to make me stronger.. i wish..