Freedom

I am going to get myself outta these shits very soon.
Ohhh can't wait for the day I'll be set freeeee ♥

And yeah I've been fallen sick since the past few days.
Indeed thank the stupid asshole for all the caring and love.
Guess I'm suffering from insomnia and pushing me to write this.
And I suddenly feel like doing my dissertation. This is so unreal!
Gotta sleep. Ta!

Tempted

Remember the time I started to feel your heart beat?
Perhaps it was the moment that I fallen into you.
Guess I've been tempted by you ever since.

Soul searching

Dear all,

Guess I am still dwelling in soul searching. That's why I dunno how to express myself here.

-perturbed- Jas

Make believe

I started to pack my reading into boxes. It is not that I quit study. Just that I need a new beginning to get everything started afresh. I am tired of looking at journals and I don't know how I used to immerse myself into it. I miss the day I used to pick it up and get to comprehend everything very fast. I miss the day I used to have faith in my studies.

I am losing faith and I am trying hard to gain back what I have left behind. I do not wish to end up like doing nothing in the end of the day. I just wanna make believe, again.

-Losing faith-

Missed Flight@LCCT Terminal

I missed my flight. And the time you called I couldn't hold my tears and tell you what am I suppose to do at the moment. I don't want to stay for another day and miss you holding me tight. I don't want to... the only thing I wanna do is stay with you. The only thing I wanna do is feel you around me and I'll be safe. And I was so delighted when you're telling me that you gonna pick me up from the airport with Denise Chuah. Although I was worrying at the same time but deep down I indeed extremely delighted. I couldn't blame you much for forcing Denise to accompany you. How could I blame you if someone treated me like you?

You make me real ♥

Apologise

I am sorry. I am sorry for the way I talk to you. Sorry for always ignoring you when I got mad. Sorry for unable to hand you when you in need. Sorry for not forgiving you even that you already trying to apologise. Yes, I am stubborn.

I am trying not to cry while you were hiding your tears at the back. I am trying not to be vulnerable, not in front of you. But after you left I keep asking myself since when I started to hide my feeling in front of you? Since when I started to treat you so bad that I would cut myself to pieces? Since when that I started to scare of your tears? As it always melts my heart and I guess I just trying not to be way too emotional at this age.

I can't be perfect. I am sorry.

你的眼泪

你的眼泪
经常让我不知所措

深怕一不小心
就会和你擦肩而过