忽然之间

最近 眼泪常不由自主地掉了下来
然后 连自己都不懂该怎样

The One That Got Away

Pain

I started to blog about you in the very first start of getting to know you.

From the doubting to be with you and till the never given up of you in our relationship. I surrendered myself in your love and I started to build the life with you always by my side.

From a girl that always yearning to fly away I settled down myself in this island just for being with you. I thought I found peace in me. I thought we will be forever in love. I thought...

There is a saying sounds like 'being with someone that gonna bring out the best of you'... I am watching you getting better, getting mature, getting good in everything and for me to dependent on. And yet I am losing myself ever since I being with you. I thought the process is temporarily, your changes just temporarily. It turned out I was wrong.

I was wrong in the very first place. That I thought you would never ever intend to break my heart.

And now I have to take the consequences and feel the pain you have caused me to hate myself and you.

心淡

新人因你的优点而靠近你

旧人放大你的缺点而远离你
2014
谢谢你

谢谢让我看清

一些人只会短暂地待在你身边

一些人却永远默默的在背后守护着你

我没有后悔

我只是心淡

New Task

Being selected as the coordinator for Anchor Idol this year as the existing coordinator decided to resign and Dato' insisted the coordinator must be someone from School of Communication. I can foresee that a lot of meetings await me and a lot of things to do in the coming days. 

Kill me.

Erased

I have made a quick move. Deleted those photo that remind me of you.

Time to erase our past.

And it is time to clear my heart.

Rock a bye

I never thought that I finally decided to let go the life that I stuck for so long. I hardly remember the reason I hold on for so long. Perhaps I picture it over beautifully and things do not turn out what we wish for most of the time. Well, after all these years hoping for something or someone to secure my life, it is time for me to wake up from that slumberland and be who I was in the past. Be someone I admired and impressed at, even though I wasn't the perfect one.

Strangely I no longer feel the heartache that you have caused me in the past. Tears still dropping down but at least I feel release after what you did to me.

Bye kiddo.