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Finally i'm bek!!!!! Wakakaka...thank God that i finished my BK5 and no longer needed to burn mid9 oil at BK lab til the next morning and go to class without bathing..yak! I'd been spent 3 days there in BK lab to get everything done yesterday. Thanks Yee Guan, Pooi Kwan dat willing to help me n they really did a lot in this BK for me..and thanks Ejane dat almost panic all the time n started to mumbling when i was beside her..lol. Thanks those who cooked for me and feed me well..thanks Omel, Akma, Risal, Baiyah, Pei Wen, Jessie, Cosin, Lai Fen, abang Azmi and bla bla bla..Thanks Miza for the Nescafe, Nisah for wrote me an article when we were out of source..everything in a rush and pushing me to get heart attack all the time. But really thanks for those who willing to contribute their efforts and helping us to finished BK5.. And Sorry for those who'd been scolded by me..lol..i really get mad when those problems happened in last minute instead of the time earlier which i tot it shud be occured. Anyway..thanks Pooi Kwan, Yee Guan and those dat willing to help me to edit it again..i think i'll giv up to edit it if u're not there for me dat time. As u know..i'm quite lazy n i hate troubles..:p Hundred thanks..for those who always being there for BK..

I didn't meet my housemate a couple days til the day i went bek yesterday..But then i pampered myself to bed at 8 sumthing at night til 2am and continue to sleep til next day afternoon after i took my shower. Hence i skipped my Japanese class once again and din attend pre-recording in studio as i promised Itee. Lotsa assignments await me..sigh..1 more potraits assignment and photo essay for Dr Adnan, then 2 more articles for BK6, 1 more survey for Tuan Haji, 2 group assignments and 1 individual essay for Dr Hafizah, 1 essay and a presentation for Yeoh Sensei..two more weeks then we'll be free and start our study weeks. This semester is killing me..everything is fussing me and lead me more tension n almost burn-out. Hoping that next semester wont repeat the same old life-style as this sem.

I haven watch Perfect Stranger!!!!! Hate to tell others that i never step in cinema this sem and my tickets collection never get added since the beginning of this sem.. Kinda mess up my life in final year. Cant get time to join Yee Guan them to Redbox and movie..i dunno why i seemed so bz..i dunno how to answer when others asked me..i indeed no idea about it. Even jz now when Mei Lin asked me.. i was doubtful bout my present life.. Is dat all i want in life? Is dat wat i need to sacrifice to attain my goals? Not everyone understand why we wanna live a life like this and put ourselves in hell bz for BK..but i think i'll be grateful and thankful when i looked bek in the forward days..or when i recall it after i graduated. Thats all what i keep for it in my uni life..dats all wat i'm doin it wit all my heart n hav no regret for spending n sacrificing my time n days for it. Dats how i get to und my frens and know the demanding for each other.. I easily get touched when i feel the wholeheartedness from one person..yet i'll feel nth but hold in contempt for those half-hearted person n fake frens. But sumtimes i dunno wat can i do if i never try to make believe..i need to believe i know. If not i wont get to move on..

My bro Boy bek home but never informed me. Anyway i forgot his bday n missed the bday wishes for him dat day.. Though he ignored my sms after dat..i stil wanna wish him here..HappY 24th Bday my dearest Brother. All da best in life n dun ever giv up ur talents.. We never meet each other since CNY!!!!! Gosh..when ya ready to meet me in real life instead of keep in touch via sms?

Lotsa dat happened in this month but i dunno how to tell when it all became past. I feel envy when i saw the photos dat my classmate took when they went to the 2 days 1 night trip at Muka Head. The sky was pretty and the dawn was amazing and the beach was calming...and eveyone seemed enjoying it so much..sigh..i wish i'll be there dat time.. Though i did went to Muka head wit my Tourism classmates but it's a dif kinda feeling dat shared together. I cant get to share the photo taking techniques wit my classmate. I cant get to use the wide and Tele Lens..sob sob..i wish there is another trip for us.. it's just a wish..

My Chimui-s will be here at Pg on 29th Saturday..^^We never get to be gather since the day i left KL. Unfortunately Yong Pin cant get to join us. Perhaps there might be some dif when we meet..but one thing for sure there's nth can tear us apart.. We'd been get through so much together.. We get hurt bcos of love, get upset bcos of caring too much, get mad when there's no faith between us. I dun care how my frens gonna changed. I dun care who they gonna turn to be..i never let go as long as we're relying on each other, as long as we're caring for one another. And that's make wat frenship all about..

Denise was leaving us couple weeks ago to Japan..but i never feel like she's so far away from me. Dear, u seem like bek Bidor or KL and we gonna meet u in the comin days. I tell u wat..dat day i went to Istimewa havin my supper bout 4am wit Pooi Kwan n Kelly after we discussing the layout design for Beyond Borders. This is the 1st ever time i went to Istimewa in this sem. It recalled me the days we used to spent together there wit Loony and Mr Blue.. We plan to go Langkawi after our final exam. But apparently we gonna make it without u and i'm wondering who gonna drink wit me when we're there. Do u stil remember the promise u made to me as u gonna get hang over wit me in Langkawi? Or shud i quit alcoholic drinks til the day i meet u? Nobody gonna stick wit me and teasing Loony and Mr Blue when we feel like wanna..i started to miss ya dear..I dunno how ur life when u surrounded by Nihon-Jin..i dunno whether u can start ur diet by bicycling and playing Ping Pong.. i dunno when u gonna start a new post and tell me ur life out there..(Am i sound like forcing u to update ur blog?)

Denise in Japan, Hui Ling in Finland, Wan Yin in Taiwan, Wei Jay n Wei Ting in Aus, Champ in New Zealand, Zhi Eh in US...when is my turn to step out Msia n start my new life.. Why it seems so far away from me.. Tuan Haji said we have to be passionate if we reali wan to be a journalist..shud be investigative jounalist. No freedom in this country for us seeking for the truth..no freedom for speech, no freedom for gathering, no equality in studies, never hav the real truth in media, never hav the real honest ppl in politic, never hav the real words to say when it needed.. Passionate can turned to be what hurt the most in the end..i'm already fed up..

Longing for another vacation..longing for another dreams..longing for the day we meet each other..longing for the days u walk in my life..once again..