lost

i started my 'no interrupted' life these few days..immersed myself totally in music, books, internet..
never go out whole day long..not even to 7-11.. never step out my living area couple of days d.. i think i'm keen on this kinda life..to be alone..i'm a freak..
keep wondering sumthing in my mind..i wish i know da answer..i wish i know wat to do next.. i doesn't like complicated relationship..it's tired me out..would it be ok if i dunwan to think bout it anymore?
doesn't used to eat alone outside..dat's y i choose to stay at home.. instant noodles ain't goin to feed me well.. how am i suppose to survive here..alone..think i'm gonna bek home..soon or later..
his words deluded me.. maybe he doesn't mean anything, maybe he jz trying to be nice, maybe he used to be like that..perhaps he doesn't know the consequences..perhaps..
i found myself lost sumtimes..but it's jz a tiny part of my heart..i'm gonna be ok..everythings wil be ok..try to manipulate myself to think so..