SecReT GarDeN

Yesterday

2012-01-03T17:37:00.004+08:00

It seems like yesterday...

I was flipping my journals at work

and you were peeping me right at the corner

绕圈圈

2011-11-07T02:46:00.003+08:00

你现在总围绕着我

在我身边绕圈圈

我可以想象

总有一天你生活的重心转移到工作时

换着我围绕着你

在你身边绕圈圈

在那天来临前

我要享受我的特权

Crocodile Tale

2011-08-12T10:32:00.005+08:00

Crocodile calls on a family during sahur, I was thinking like there might be something happened to its family members in the river. Is it possible that it is trying to get some help?

Something must have been up to.. and would its family come looking for it after the disappearance? What would the crocodile say if it could possibly talk? Maybe it just wanna be friend. Maybe something bad happened in the early morning... maybe. And maybe it will never know how its life would be after these...

New Chapter :)

2011-08-01T00:55:00.002+08:00

Hi there.

It has been a while. I thought that I would never get back to here anymore. Well, perhaps I no longer have more time for myself and I no longer needed some place to share my selfish thoughts as I already have someone to share my life with at the moment. I can't be perfect. And I know you're virtually somewhere in my heart somehow.

I've think about you and me just for a while just now. I've think about our differences especially our lifestyle. We both should have noticed it earlier, that we don't share a common lifestyle together... not even a same interest. And I realised that I couldn't talk much in front of you, I couldn't voice out my thoughts to share with you... Simply because I can't. I am not myself in front of you. I am not.

I am glad that you got a new life ahead. And I am glad that we are friend no matter what.

Friendship forever :)

You don't have to

2011-05-11T15:09:00.003+08:00

You don't have to be smart to impress me. Unless you gonna be real smart, then for sure I'll be impressed.

You don't have to be good looking to attract me. Unless you are real good looking, then for sure my eyes would definitely fallen on you.

You don't have to be rich to secure my life. Yet you gotta be passion, bout your dreams and everything that come ahead.

You don't have to buy me flowers. You don't have to worry about me because I know how to take care of myself.

You just need to be funny and make me laugh whenever I feel like the sky is falling down. And you just need to fasten my seatbelt while you pick me up.

You just need to be spontaneous and caring. And that's all!

Deutsch ♥

2011-05-10T04:47:00.002+08:00

I am picking up my German recently.

Hopefully I could get my feet to the castle very soon ♥

I am BacK

2011-05-08T21:52:00.002+08:00

How are you?

...................

I miss you indeed. Where have you been all these while?

...................

It's okay. As long as you're here right now.

Please do not abandoned me without any sign given.

I can't take the loneliness any longer.

I am B A C K :)

Thank You

2011-02-13T02:53:00.002+08:00

I wasn't ready when you called me and asking about the sub line. And I was in a very bad mood thus I keep yelling at you. I know this is real bad that I wouldn't forgive myself for doing these shits to you... but I just couldn't stop and cut off the line. I hate myself.

You didn't give up on me. You called me up while I was working and this time you sounded angry and asked me who's the person that bully me. I feel protected but I couldn't tell you how I feel at the moment. I told you I was working and hang up the phone. I am sorry for being mean for everything that I did just now. It recalls me the same condition I was having during my first year Uni as I just get my heart broken. You called and tell me you'll always be there and don't I ever reluctant to tell you if I wasn't alright... You always get me misty-eyed you never know.

And this time you called and talking to me nicely that I wanna thank you for being such understanding. You always be the one that comprehend how I feel whenever I get myself piss off. You always there to calm me down whenever I feel my world has turn into gray. I never try to hide anything from you. Most of the time I thought you would notice or knowing me well. Thus I keep everything inside and hoping you would understand me.

I am sorry. And I love you Mum...

Freedom

2011-01-24T02:47:00.002+08:00

I am going to get myself outta these shits very soon.
Ohhh can't wait for the day I'll be set freeeee ♥

And yeah I've been fallen sick since the past few days.
Indeed thank the stupid asshole for all the caring and love.
Guess I'm suffering from insomnia and pushing me to write this.
And I suddenly feel like doing my dissertation. This is so unreal!
Gotta sleep. Ta!

Tempted

2010-12-03T08:32:00.002+08:00

Remember the time I started to feel your heart beat?
Perhaps it was the moment that I fallen into you.
Guess I've been tempted by you ever since.

Soul searching

2010-11-15T21:23:00.002+08:00

Dear all,

Guess I am still dwelling in soul searching. That's why I dunno how to express myself here.

-perturbed- Jas

Make believe

2010-10-20T21:36:00.002+08:00

I started to pack my reading into boxes. It is not that I quit study. Just that I need a new beginning to get everything started afresh. I am tired of looking at journals and I don't know how I used to immerse myself into it. I miss the day I used to pick it up and get to comprehend everything very fast. I miss the day I used to have faith in my studies.

I am losing faith and I am trying hard to gain back what I have left behind. I do not wish to end up like doing nothing in the end of the day. I just wanna make believe, again.

-Losing faith-

Missed Flight@LCCT Terminal

2010-10-14T23:33:00.003+08:00

I missed my flight. And the time you called I couldn't hold my tears and tell you what am I suppose to do at the moment. I don't want to stay for another day and miss you holding me tight. I don't want to... the only thing I wanna do is stay with you. The only thing I wanna do is feel you around me and I'll be safe. And I was so delighted when you're telling me that you gonna pick me up from the airport with Denise Chuah. Although I was worrying at the same time but deep down I indeed extremely delighted. I couldn't blame you much for forcing Denise to accompany you. How could I blame you if someone treated me like you?

You make me real ♥

Apologise

2010-09-27T02:21:00.002+08:00

I am sorry. I am sorry for the way I talk to you. Sorry for always ignoring you when I got mad. Sorry for unable to hand you when you in need. Sorry for not forgiving you even that you already trying to apologise. Yes, I am stubborn.

I am trying not to cry while you were hiding your tears at the back. I am trying not to be vulnerable, not in front of you. But after you left I keep asking myself since when I started to hide my feeling in front of you? Since when I started to treat you so bad that I would cut myself to pieces? Since when that I started to scare of your tears? As it always melts my heart and I guess I just trying not to be way too emotional at this age.

I can't be perfect. I am sorry.

你的眼泪

2010-09-21T16:17:00.000+08:00

你的眼泪
经常让我不知所措

深怕一不小心
就会和你擦肩而过

With Y O U

2010-09-09T17:25:00.003+08:00

With you

I think about our wedding.
I think about our dream car.
Our dream house, the decoration, the design, the things that you like.

With you

I think about travel and photo hunting with you.
Think about drawing together during our leisure time.
Think about spending the whole day together with no particular place to go.

With you

I think about the right thing to do when I've make you mad.
I think about those words that I've hurt you.
Think about our past that drew us together.
And I always think about you, fondly.

I remember those days that we've been through.
Those words we said.
And those tears that we dropped together.
I remember your promises.
And I remember mine.

And thank God.
That I got Y O U ♥

You&Me

2010-08-16T03:25:00.001+08:00

♥ Midnight at foyer dewan kuliah ♥

Hello

2010-08-10T02:41:00.003+08:00

It's never too late to say hello, again.

Sorry, I got a extremely important mission to be completed within this month.

And if i couldn't make it means I have to pay another 3k to re-do my dissertation.

Suckssss to the max!!!

June 2009@2010

2010-07-25T05:49:00.002+08:00

I am blessed.

Thank you my pet.

You make me real♥

♥Hugzzz♥

祝福你

2010-06-24T01:51:00.002+08:00

我说过，若有一天，你放弃了，我才会选择放弃。

但我忘了说，若有一天，我比你还要先放手，不是因为有另一个人的出现，也不是因为你不够好。我的离开，纯粹是因为你不够爱我，不像我那么的爱你，也是因为你心里还住着另外一个她……

感情的事，如果没办法找到平衡点，没办法达成共同的理念、共同的梦想，再多的甜蜜幸福，也只是来日的伤痛。

祝你幸福快乐

I Never Told You

2010-05-27T00:24:00.005+08:00

I thought that by keeping the distance between you and me is the better way to let me get rid of you. Yet I just couldn't stand seeing you dwelling in sadness. And the biggest part of your sadness is because of her. As it always cut me into pieces...

I never told you that I was waiting downstair while I called you. I never told you that I was hesitating to call you, not until I saw your car parked downstair. I never told you, because I care.

My Words for Myself

2010-05-18T02:47:00.002+08:00

Jasmine,

I know you are healing. Keep yourself back on track and love ya always ♥

xoxo

Expiry Date

2010-05-08T04:06:00.002+08:00

I don't hate you. And I would never hate you. Although I do not like the feeling you've made me feel like I am the one that suddenly walk into your life again and mess up everything.

I never intended to take the first move, you should know about it if you know me true. I do not have to courage to tell someone about my affections unless the person take the very first move. You should have know it... but your words did hurt me that night. Even that I know you do not mean it that way, but it sounds so cruel that I feel like crying out loudly. I have been doing a lot of thinking about us recently. I feel sorry for everything we had, indeed. And I feel sorry for unable to keep you forever... Perhaps you do not care about it at all.

I am going to do whatever that you ask for. That is my only promise to keep from now. Every relationship comes with an expiry date. For the day it comes, I know I don't have to hold the promise and I'll release myself, from your embrace.

The Old Me

2010-05-04T03:04:00.003+08:00

Dear diary,

I think I'm getting sick. Getting sick of love, sick of everything around me. I do not mean to show the emo face. But I can't help and don't feel like smiling most of the time. I wish someone could stay by my side, I mean forever. I wish I could get to see the blue ocean. I wish to tanning under the sun. I wish to jump into the sea. I wish I got time to read my favourite books. I wish I don't have to finish the dissertation. I wish I needless to think about my future after the graduation. I wish I don't have to leave the island, but I do wish to leave sometimes. I wish I could fake a smile to you but my heart twisted each time I tried to look at you. I wish I am the only one. I wish I could love you forever. But I know I shouldn't have to...

I miss the old me. I feel myself getting vulnerable day by day.

Jasmine

自我保护

2010-04-22T05:30:00.002+08:00

亲爱的，

对不起，我常常过于保护自己，而不愿意走出自己的世界。我常担心过于复杂的关系，会让自己受伤害，没想到打开心房容许别人踏入我的世界，最终也会很受伤。

给我些许时间，然后，我会淡忘那些过去……

爱你的我

You are young. I was wrong.

2010-04-14T03:40:00.003+08:00

I tried to sleep. Yet I just couldn't get rid of the worries and stay awake on desk. Then I tried to write something, but my pure mind is full of you, everything of yours. Sad right?

Alex said that this ain't true love, it's just a crush. I started to doubtful about myself. Am I wrong about it? Does it means that I never fall in love? How could somebody tell you that you're not really into that guy after you got your heart broken for the same old person for so long?

I wonder did you really fall into me as well. I wonder why, I wonder how... I wonder how could you get into a new relationship while I still couldn't get rid of you. I don't understand you, indeed. And guess I wouldn't get to understand you...

It's not so easy loving me... You are young. I was wrong.

Moody

2010-04-08T03:19:00.003+08:00

Current moods:

Perplexed, dejected, discouraged, distraught, detached, paranoid, nostalgic, melancholy, freakish, broody, brittle...

-You got me misty-eyed-

To My Storyteller

2010-04-03T04:39:00.004+08:00

You don't have to say sorry seriously. Well, although it did melted my heart and lessen the pain and hatred deep inside. I am sorry that I never think about you would be feeling inferior to be with me. Indeed, we're from two different world. And I am sorry I pushed you away. I am sorry because I don't know how to express myself.

I understand you don't know how to express yourself as well. I do not blame on you anymore. I shouldn't and I shall not acting like this. Maybe it is just the heartache that watching you're doing fine. And guess it is simply because I no longer sharing your life with. It keeps me wondering how's your life without me.

I am sorry to walk into your life. And thank you for everything we had.

Guardian Angel

2010-03-28T05:01:00.005+08:00

You know I would be here. You know sometimes I would thinking about you still. I wish we weren't so young when we met. Yet I am glad we were young, we pictured it wonderfully and been the pure and true partner for each other.

I am glad that I am still in your heart. I have no doubt when you're telling me this, I mean you're the only one that I would believe in out of all other guys that say the same words to me. Maybe I do not trust in guys. Or maybe I always feel like people are changeable, but not you, not the one that I know for real.

How can you tell the feeling I have towards you? How could it be that we're always falling apart? How dare you asked me the same questions once and once again?

The sad thing is, even I got you the answers, I tried to make things clear, I tried to runaway and turn back to you; we would always be the same. Stuck at the same old place, unable to move forward, unable to start all over again. What's wrong with us?

You'll always there whenever I get my heart broken, and like I said, I'll be missing you if you finally found your love and she is no longer me. You are my guardian angel, the only one.

习惯寂寞

2010-03-24T03:06:00.003+08:00

我想早已经习惯寂寞

所以没办法让你踏入我的生活

不想习惯了某个人的陪伴

不小心失去后

要再次用好长好长的时间来调整

内心的容量有限

没办法负荷太多的养分

养分的保存期限过后

留下的都只是伤痛

如果没有你莫文蔚

2010-03-22T17:26:00.002+08:00

Imitator

2010-03-21T06:24:00.003+08:00

I actually should have post this few days ago. But I was way too busy and headache about the dissertation, hence it took me quite some time to figure it out and finally make up my mind to write something at last.

This ain't going to be a spiritless post of mine. It yet going to be an inspired post. Guess it gotta be a declamation speech of mine towards someone that doesn't respect herself and other people. Perhaps it would be good that I didn't manage to post this few days back. I might say that I ain't gonna be as calm as right now and I can assured you that it gonna be quite rough.

Well, I don't really like somebody copy my post or line and post it into their blog and make it seems like they actually wrote it. This is totally uncool and so annoying. I was so mad the time I found out and text the girl to delete it. Forgot to tell, she's one of my friend, but I think she's no longer categorised into the list. First, she acted like don't get what I mean. Maybe she doesn't know that I viewed her blog as well. Then I text her again and mentioned about the title and everything. Thus she apologised. And guess what, I found that she already made it becomes a private blog the time I wanna check out whether she delete the post from the site. Hell yea! This was getting into my nerves already!

And the worst thing is, she dare to text me still and asking about some stuff. Plus, she rang me some more. And I didn't reply and answer the call at all. I was so going to curse her if I ever pick up the phone. *Grasp* I was pissed off, obviously. Wonder why she would felt that I would be fine.

I could understand if you just wanna share something. But please do not become an imitator and copy everything from other people. I couldn't understand if you do not learn by your own. I wish I could cursing loudly out there. But I do not wish that I turned to be someone that I would be shame on. So, I am learning to be a better person. Ugh...perhaps step by step. I ain't going to forgive you at the moment. Honestly I do not like you from the first day that I get to know you. You're just the faker that I wouldn't let into my life. Maybe you have your reason not to show your true self to others. I just couldn't accept your attitude and your perceptions, especially the way you handle with relationship. I mean all kind of relationship. Don't get me wrong in this.

Duh...what a post. Freaking loco.

BirthdaY GreeTing

2010-03-14T03:01:00.000+08:00

Happy BirthdaY Babe ♥
Almost forgot your birthday...

XOXO

From:

-Your beloved Aunt-

Weirdness

2010-03-12T19:48:00.003+08:00

I know I am weird. But I never expect people to look at me while I walk alone, shop alone, and whenever I am being alone. I walked into the bookstore and stared at the vampire collection for so long just now, wondering whether I should grab it or keep it till I finish the dissertation. Then only I realised people around were looking at me. With my cheeks blushed I walk out from the bookstore.

I told you that I am a very shy person. I daren't to have eye contact with people. I daren't to talk to strangers. I daren't to do many things... Perhaps that makes me weird.

And perhaps you demand something special from me. And I couldn't manage to convince myself that I am capable of doing that. So that I am all alone this time.

Miss Dependent

2010-03-10T18:11:00.003+08:00

I guess none of us wanted to be Miss Independent.

Remember the time when you asked me to get out of those shits? I was in a very dejected mood. As I used to have somebody to share my life with, it's hard for me to get rid of the person in a sudden. Although I know there is impossible for us to have a brighter future, I just couldn't help myself falling into his sincerity. He always there when I torn myself apart. And he was the one that brighten up my life when I dwelled into darkness. Ain't that we always hope for someone like that?

The cruel thing about life is, it makes us indulging in our short-term imagination and wake us up in the ugly reality. I don't know how to put it into words. But you have to trust me, although it's the toughest thing to do but I am moving on...

---Moving forward---

Always on My Mind by Elvis Presley

2010-03-08T00:39:00.004+08:00

Maybe I didn't treat you
Quite as good as I should have
Maybe I didn't love you
Quite as often as I could have

Little things I should have said & done
I just never took the time
But you were always on my mind
You were always on my mind

Maybe I didn't hold you
All those lonely, lonely times
And I guess I never told you
I'm so happy that you're mine
If I made you feel second best
Girl, I'm sorry I was blind
You were always on my mind
You were always on my mind

Tell me, tell me that yourSweet love hasn't died
Give me, give me one more chance
To keep you satisfiedSatisfied
Little things I should have said & done
I just never took the time

You were always on my mind
You were always on my mind
You were always on my mind
You were always on my mind

New Possession

2010-03-04T05:49:00.001+08:00

Tell me

2010-03-04T00:33:00.003+08:00

As I stucked at Chapter two for so damn long, I guess it's time to continue move on and finish everything end of month.

So...tell me, what shall I do next?

Your Smile

2010-02-25T21:07:00.002+08:00

I guess you are the only person that could warmed my heart right now.

Would you wipe away all my tears?

爱多少早知道殷悦

2010-02-22T07:09:00.002+08:00

也许认识我的时候你就知道　你对我的爱有多少

Not to cry, one last time.

2010-02-21T23:30:00.004+08:00

I wish I could smile and give you the best wishes when I saw your photo with her.
But I guess it just another heart broken.
As I couldn't take, and finally remove you from the friend list.

It was something that you never did it to us.
And there were those promises that being forgotten.

You shouldn't have walk into my life.
And I shouldn't have take it seriously.

---Erasing the memories---

You got Me

2010-02-12T00:40:00.003+08:00

Although I'm trying hard to ignore the reminder that Denise had post in her blog. I guess I shall write something about my current life, as I do hope that I would manage to get at least one post within this month... Owh wait, perhaps two?

I started to work for my cousin as a supervisor of their new shop in Queensbay. So you could possibly catch me almost everyday in the mall. Sigh... It's a very new learning process because sometimes things coming up and I have to settle by my own. At the same time, I have to finish the dissertation that I've left out ever since I went to the backpacking. A lot of things tangled up my mind... I wonder whether I would be able to graduate in the coming August. Anyhow I must get it done within the duedate that I've set. I don't want to waste another year to make it real...

As I don't feel like update my blog in the past few weeks, simply because I still in a very dejected mood. I already have many spiritless posts and if I ever post something it must be something depressed. Sigh... Try to occupied by tons of workload and try to cheer up by those songs that I've been addicted to.

Something that I would like to tell you is, I can't stop missing you.

It used to be Y O U

2010-01-23T10:02:00.003+08:00

You never tell me how you went it through when I pushed you away.

I never tell you, how it hurts and the pain that I am going through right now. Watching you started your life afresh, with someone who loves you.

---Heartbroken---

Dreams Together

2010-01-20T02:18:00.004+08:00

I admitted that I always need someone to scold me then only I would move forward when I stucked at somewhere in the intersection. And thank you for being the one that nagging about me while I still daydreaming here.

It's funny because we always far away from each other, but still I would listen to you as the one that motivating me to move on. We have so many dreams ever since we met each other in our secondary school. So many goals to attain and a lot more unrealistic dreams that we wish to have in real life. Most of the time I feel we both are similar in many ways especially our thoughts and especially we always wish to live at the moment and enjoy every moment that we have right now. Perhaps we might doubtful about ourselves sometimes, doubtful that whether we're just wasting time and doing nothing in the end of the day. But we do know that, it's just the inner fierce within ourselves that afraid to lose something great in life. Yes I do jealous seeing you dwelling yourself in the country that I ever wish to further my study. Meanwhile, as a friend of yours, I do wishing you all the best and glad to see you finally get away from here and get to learn something new and live through the most wonderful thing in life.

I miss you. Most of the time it recalls me to our good old days. We used to have so many dreams in our younger days. And most of it shattered into pieces... Could we just fix it?

Underneath anger is hurt, but underneath hurt is love

2010-01-15T22:02:00.002+08:00

I send my greatest apologies, for not being here for so long. I am going to miss out so many things here while I try to enjoying my life out there. So much fun I had have; so much heart-broken as it reduced me to tears; and sometimes it made me realised that I didn't live a real life. I guess when you meet great people and they just passing by and continue to move on their own life, you probably would started to wonder...

I don't have time to update blog ever since I back from the long vacation. Each time I tried to write down something, it seemed like nothing left in my mind. Each time I tried to look back, I just couldn't find a way to move on. It is weird when you thought that you finally bring in something great in life, and then they just slip away. You don't have time to re-think about it, you don't even have time to rewind the memories. It is true that we can't... and I wish I won't be stuck at here. It's already feel like forever.

Ended the one month job; went to Singapore to meet up Sis, Eguan and Jimmy; spent time with Matt when he was in Penang; attended Sim Chee & Bob's wedding dinner; celebrated my birthday. What else that comes ahead?

It is indeed sad I didn't receive your greeting for the whole day. I admit that I've been waiting and waiting and it ends up nothing. I tried to think positively and not to act silly all the times. And yes I was drunk. I just feel like talk to you and I really did. Sigh... Although I know I could have make it alright between you and me, but I just hate to think about our current relationship. I never say I hate you. Oh hell, I did when I was drunk. And I couldn't tell you I love you, though. You don't have to apology for the whole damn things between us. I just couldn't forgive you for walk into my life twice, and act like there's nothing after all. Don't ever tell me that you're upset for the split up. I know you always have those people who love you to hang out with. I wonder if you ever realise that you might broke their hearts as well in the end of the day.

And yes, I hate you.

Drunken Night

2010-01-14T03:36:00.002+08:00

I was real drunk last night.

And so do you.

Happy New Year 2010

2010-01-01T03:40:00.003+08:00

I'll be back very soon.

After 3rd Jan my part time job would be ended and I'll blog. That's a promise!

Wait for me.

XOXO

Not Myself

2009-12-24T05:19:00.003+08:00

I don't feel like myself anymore. I reckon I am trying to forget who I used to be. I mean if you do know me really well, I suppose you know there are some beliefs that I hold firmly in life. Time flies, and as I am getting older and older, those beliefs seem to be false in some sense.

I am really not liking myself right now. But I don't feel like going back to the past.

Feel like I've given up.

Apologise

2009-12-22T02:27:00.003+08:00

Sorry guys...

I have too much to tell, but no time to share it here.

Perhaps silent is the best way to keep distance between you and me.

XOXO

I Know You Miss Her

2009-12-14T03:07:00.002+08:00

I bought babe the dress from the central market in Sa Pa, Vietnam. It just cost about RM9 if not mistaken.

Talking to myself

2009-10-26T05:54:00.002+08:00

I stare at the screen for a very long time before I started to do my typing. Such a hectic life best to describe my current life. Although I need not rushing for dissertation, need not go to work like everyone else, I feel like living in a vacuum somehow... and that's saddened me indeed. I never tend to be someone like this, living in my own world, keep pushing people away, keep doing the things I like and ignoring those affections that gradually fade away... sigh

Going to depart to Bangkok tomorrow morning. I am in the great hope that this getaway might be the better solution to refresh my tangled mind. Hoping that I may get a life afresh without looking back to the past that keep haunting me days and nights. Hoping that I may somehow gain something great, improving the inner self and more perceive of the future path of mine. It's terrifying indeed when dealing with the incertain future. I admit that I am dreamer most of the time, but I mixed it up with the reality and make it impossible for me to attain something great in life. Maybe I meant to screw it up sometimes... maybe we meant to fall back sometimes, to look at what we'd missing in the very first place.

I tried not to show the flood of emotions you had caused within me as we met that day. I tried not to surrender in your embrace once again. But again and again, I should never trust my heart any longer. Perhaps I couldn't get rid of your seductive smile. It drew me back to the good old days that we used to have, that we used to share every single little thing in life. I've been caught in the middle and I don't know how to walk away from you. I guess the biggest problem between us is gonna remain the same to death. I was unable to answer you... although you never phrase it as a question. It's funny when you find yourself looking from the outside. Like how we get to know each other, how we get along, how we picture each other in our own perception. I wonder how you characterise me in your eyes, I wonder many things when it comes about you and me...

-G-E-E-K-

2009-10-22T00:28:00.005+08:00

I went to Borders just now and spent RM160 on 5 books. Then went to Popular bookstore to renew my member card and found that the vampire stories got the new collection... then... you may spell my name loudly... I AM A GEEK!!! :)

真挚的笑容

2009-10-21T02:32:00.003+08:00

你说，别对你太认真。
我说，再也不会了，是真的。我不会对那些对我不真心的人那么的认真。
问你，会失落吗。
你回答说，只要你懂我之前的真心，就好。

我看开的，只不过是不再把你捆绑在我身边，不再强求天长地久。
我在乎的，是彼此还能见到对方的笑容，真挚的笑容。
也不想要留下彼此伤害的痛苦。
像现在，就好。

Hello

2009-10-20T00:28:00.000+08:00

Hello people~ here I am after disappear for almost 3 weeks long. Just get into car accident on Sunday on my way back to Penang with my sis, mum and babe. Well, luckily that we're still alive and no one get hurt. Just pity the poor car that get into workshop after suffering the major part of its that needed to be fix. Mami asked me to delete those photo that I'd upload in facebook and I did so... Kinda lazy to share it here...so sorry guys...:)

Guess I shall update some interesting stuff... So I ponder so hard and found that my life was way too ordinary to draw it perfect. Anyway, I finished the vampire novels already. I knew I actually should move on to start the dissertation... just that the reason that hold me back is obviously my laziness which keep dragging me to somewhere else or slacking around and doing nothing. *wink*

One more week then I shall depart to KL, Bangkok, KL, Vietnam and Cambodia~ longing for the countless reunion in KL :) date me if you tend to meet me. I'll be there from 31st Oct to 3rd Nov. See ya around~

Vampire Geeks

2009-09-27T23:41:00.003+08:00

Okay...this is the book that I bought last month at Popular bookstore. And it made me fall into vampire stories eventually. Thus, I was searching for the series at Borders few days back but I didn't get it there. I got the chance went to Popular during my break time this evening. I guess you guys know how the story goes... I bought the whole collection as the picture shown...

Well...Smile:)

Nonsense

2009-09-26T23:28:00.002+08:00

I got nothing to do during my rest time while I was working. Thus, I went Borders to look around. As the consequences... I grabbed quickly Harper Lee's To Kill a Mockingbird when my first glance fall on her. Then I was searching for my vampire novels but none was there. I walked myself to the promotion area and Anne Frank photo caught my attention. I knew I am gonna be broke at the very moment. It was the other side of the story from Miep, the person who helped the frank family to hide during the war and Anne mentioned her name a lot in her diaries. Obviously, it gonna be included into my list. Hence, I just pick another book the Immortal Words from the promotion area just to get the 20% discount. Sounds greedy when I recall it right now. Here they are...lying on my bed^^

Another short story I would like to tell. I feel like this guy is watching me everyday while I am working... You don't believe? See?! I got the proof!!! :p Ciao~

Blessed

2009-09-21T02:15:00.004+08:00

Just finished the Estee Lauder promotion at Gurney and going to off one day then started another promotion at Queensbay on Tuesday til end of month. Feel glad that I met many nice person such as Janny the retail manager, Susan my promotion partner, Adrian and Eddie the make up artists from KL, Cally, Grace, Sharon, Eunice and of course Desmond the photographer and those people that bump into my life... I couldn't control my curiousity to get to know them bit by bit and share the laughters in every single little thing. I can assure you that I love every single moment shared and thank God for sending those kindhearted person into my life... I am blessed I know... *wink*

Emotional

2009-09-09T17:30:00.002+08:00

I thought that I would be more relaxing after the proposal presentation. Yet I can only felt the disappointment deep inside my heart. I feel like quitting sometimes. Find no reason why should I continue to move on... Feel like a failure most of the time ever since I started the postgraduate study. Am I the only one that having this kind of feeling or there is someone out there that actually having the same thought as mine? I wish I could find someone to talk to... someone that might understand me I wish. Sigh... but I guess I used to introvert my feelings and that makes me feel uncomfortable when face up with others.

I've been getting very emotional lately due to the conversation with someone that I care for... Sigh... But I was trying hard not to let the person disrupt the peace that I finally have after a very long time ever since we fallen apart. People do change, but what I feel about you remained the same. Indeed, I don't know why you wanna hurt me by saying those words. And I finally noticed how you feel about me after all these years. Thank for letting me realise that I should have quitted you long time ago. Seriously, I don't need someone like you to complete my life. And I don't think that I demand too much from you. It makes me wonder why you're not changing at all after all these years. I admitted that I am pretty stubborn until now. But I really can't stand the way you handled our relationship and claimed to have love me so much. I am old enough to be deceived by sweet talk...

sigh...emo emo...I gotta stop.

Officially Brain Dead

2009-09-08T14:48:00.002+08:00

I am back again~~~!!!

Just finished the proposal presentation and extremely exhausted don't know why...:(

Can't think of anything right now... Framing, political economy, primary and secondary definers all tangled up my pure mind... Grrhhh...Goffman, Entman, Stuart Hall and those scholars' name keep running through my mind... HELP!!!

I need to REST!

Terribly Busy

2009-09-04T02:58:00.004+08:00

Hello~ I am back!!! Just get the proposal done but I think sure got many changes to make after meet Prof tomorrow. So at the moment I just want to relax myself without being puzzled because of those journals and theories.

Well, Estee Lauder promotion is back and I got the job offers from 14th-20th at Gurney and 22th-29th at Queensbay Mall. Thank God I can save more money for my backpacking plan in November. Somehow, it turns me into a very difficult position where I need to do my proposal presentation on coming Tuesday, Sept 8, 2009. Then I would back hometown few days, come back Penang and started to work til end of month. Then I got a Bangkok trip in end of October (Although Piak and Siang feel like cancel it due to H1N1, I only will make the final decision in Oct), then November I would backpacking wih Eguan til 19th. Everything seem very pack but the most scary part is December would be my viva for dissertation. *sigh* So if u do noticed, I only got one month to do my dissertation and it is definitely impossible for me!!! I have not enough faith in myself right now...gonna screw up the whole dissertation...:(

Although I'm terribly busy. the book that I currently read is The Diary of A Young Girl from Anne Frank. And I bought two books from Popular bookstore last month. Forgot to share it here. Now you may have a look:)

Well, will be back very soon...ciao~

Homesick

2009-08-31T12:35:00.004+08:00

Close your eyes, make a wish...

And I will be there :)

御宅族

2009-08-28T14:16:00.005+08:00

It'd been four continuous days I never step out my house... believe it or not... Guess if I need not to return the robe for Denise, then perhaps I won't move my ass to the campus later or maybe tomorrow. It keeps raining here in Penang. Spoilt my mood and made me sleepy all day long...(Excuses, but it's true :p)

If you see my post entry within this month then you would realise how lazy I am... Pigging all day long on my bed... Finally get time to watch Heroes season 3 that I'd been long for. So I stayed up whole night to finish it then only I carried myself to bed.

Ohh..forgot to tell. I got my Nikon D90 already. :) I am officially broke now. I know I am a big spender but Den, you better believe it...

Ciao~ (As you know, I feel like sleeping, again...)

燃烧 by 孙楠

2009-08-20T02:13:00.002+08:00

当爱在心中燃烧

年龄又怎么会有距离

The best part of the week

2009-08-16T12:40:00.002+08:00

Well, recently I was busy for some assignments for my dear purple light that far away in UK. Since it may earn some pocket money for both of us, so we just drag ourself into the business. The only problem that she always get mad of me is generally because I always get it done in last minute, and I couldn't make it through this morning... Well, well...I hate deadline. It drives me nervous and panic most of the time.

Below is the email that I sent her this moning and her reply... I know it is stupid. But it made me non-stop laughing each time when I read it. Hoping that it might light up your day somehow =)

From: jasmine_sau@hotmail.com
To: haifenglove@hotmail.com
Subject: help!!!Date: Sun, 16 Aug 2009 03:40:47 +0800

Dear Purple,

As u know that my laziness drives me crazy to9. I only manage to get the survey done by now. Anyhow, there are still some Qs that I did not finish. You may check it n help me to finish it as well. My pure mind is wandering and im totally blank...LOL

Before I coninue to the interview part, I guess I shall get a nap cos my eyelids are heavy and it drag me to bed...;p

by the time the dawn is calling, I guess u shall kill me instead... but I know u couldn't make it as we are far away from each other. So either of us commit suside long before we meet each other. Or we shall wait til the day we meet and kill one another...CIAO~

Love from SonaK

From: Haifenglove Tan (haifenglove@hotmail.com)
Sent: Sunday, 16 Aug, 2009 7: 28 AM
To: jasmine_sau@hotmail.com

KNN U!!!!
I told the person I gonna send her the interview part by TOMOLO.
死都要给我死出来！！！！不然我自杀！！！！
而且，我觉得survey他也有很多东西要改，因为没做得很好。

p/s 1:刚才工作左眼一直跳，就知道有不好的事情，也大概知道你会做不完！！

p/s 2:明天我会工作一整天，应该都不会在家。有什么事给我发简讯！
+4407920511xxx （我不想看到你的简讯！不要有事！！）

但是，明天你一定要做好！
不然，双亡！

陈诗韵上。

Memories

2009-08-12T05:28:00.003+08:00

I thought that I wouldn't update anything about my recent life because it is so bored except that I spent a lot of money due to the PC fair and mega sales... I get a new HP printer, just to make my eyes more comfort without getting pain staring at the screen for those journals that I never have enough time to get it done. Then by next week I shall get my Nikon D90 that cost me RM4050 in total. And last but no least, I spent a lot during the mega sales, what excited me the most was I grabbed myself 4 pairs of converse within 2 months. And the God damn red color finally added into the list.*wink* Since then I got 10 pairs of converse collection and I promise that It would getting more and more in the coming days:)

I finally bought The Diary of A Young Girl from MPH bookstore. I am hardly got time for reading these few weeks, I mean those except journals that I'd been forced to read.

Walked into Body Shop to buy my favourite Satsuma shower gel. And I saw the Jasmin fragrance that I used to smell when I met you. I sprayed it on my sleeve, then I recalled the day in Gurney Starbucks, just you and me...and the memories that we left for each other. I can't help myself most of the time. It keeps rewinding every single thing between us. I couldn't forget every single word that you used to say, and I couldn't forget how your eyes fell on me... as it tempted me until now.

Thank for my guardian angel... I never expect that you would text me in this early morning. And I reali grateful that you care about me still. Can you imagine how vulnerable I am ? I do know that I love to make assumptions and get to the final decision. But as I said, I wanna picture my future with someone for life, not just a temporary relationship. It tired me out sometimes...

My dearest friend, sinking herself into a complicated relationship recently. And I can feel that she never tend to walk out of it in this very moment. I wish she knows what's better for her in future. I wish she mulls over every words that I'd been said to her...

The Pieces Don't Fit Anymore by James Morrison

2009-08-06T05:50:00.003+08:00

I've been twisting and turning,
In a space that's too small.
I've been drawing the line and watching it fall,
You've been closing me in, closing the space in my heart.
Watching us fading and watching it all fall apart.

Chorus
Well I can't explain why it's not enough, Cause I gave it all to you.
And if you leave me now, oh just leave me now.
It's the better thing to do,
It's time to surrender,
It's been to long pretending.
Theres no use in trying,
When the pieces don't fit anymore, Pieces don't fit here anymore.

You pulled me under,
If I had to give in.
Such a beautiful myth,
That's breaking my skin.
Well I'll hide all the bruises,
I'll hide all the damage that's done.
But I show how I'm feeling until all the feeling has gone.

(Chorus)

Ooh don't missunderstand,
How I feel.
Cause I've tried, yes I've tried.
But still I don't know why, no I don't know why.
III dont know why...... whyyyyyyyy!

(Chorus)

Mind-wandering

2009-07-31T05:27:00.002+08:00

I can't sleep. Perhaps the late night mocha did wake me up. Thus I light up a cig, hoping that I might be fall in sleep in a while. But then it remains the same. I am lying on the bed. My mind wanders, and I am lost, I guess.

It'd been end of month. And I've been a mess since I started this very new semester. I've been so busy searching for my supervisor, part-time job, journals reading, searching for new housemate and bla bla bla. Hell ya, my daily schedule in August already fully occupied. So I don't think that I would have time to take a break. I do not have time. And I shouldn't have the excuses to rest my mind...

Talked to Dr Mus today and he can't be my supervisor for the dissertation. Perhaps I did a very lousy proposal, or maybe he is busy since he don't even have time to check his inbox for almost two weeks after I sent him my proposal. Just when I wanna turn to Prof Zaharom, I received his email again. And he said he talked to Pn Wang and she would be interested to be my supervisor... So I was puzzled. I am so thankful to Dr Mus for recommended me even that he couldn't guide me for the dissertation. After a very long and thoughtful consideration, I text Prof Zaharom and he replied me 'yes' for an answer within a minute. Felt grateful for having those kind-hearted lecturers around. Yet I can feel that my nightmare is coming ahead...

It is just part of my life that keep haunting me day by day. I wish I could attain something great in future. Although it might be hard sometimes. I shall not blaming myself for the path that'd been chosen.

For those who are concerned about me, thanks for your love. I am doing great...hopefully:)

Yasmin Ahmad

2009-07-26T03:53:00.003+08:00

I guess those that love her movies and Ads definitely would be depressing after knowing that she passed away last night.

To be frank, I only get to know her since the day I became a Communication undergraduate in USM. Although I watched her Ads for Petronas like thousand times before, but I never expect who is the director that successfully made me misty-eyed each time I watch those TV commercials. And being a communication undergrad really brought me into her world, her thoughts and mind that we both know those inequalities that actually happen in our society but no one would dare to question in public.

I extend my heartfelt condolences to her family.

R.I.P.

Me@Converse

2009-07-18T02:46:00.002+08:00

Six and left one at hometown.

Gotta grab the God damn RED colour very soon.

ILL-TiMeD

2009-07-14T15:20:00.004+08:00

First, I got late payment penalty RM200 for the semester fees.

Second, I went to the library, with the purpose to apply for library locker. Then I just realised that it'd been closed few days back. *SIGH*

What a life... Why everything seem ill-timed for me? Why the whole world suddenly turning upside-down around me? Why I got this kind of feeling that I just couldn't fit in anymore...

I felt like I've been languishing for weeks since the day my heart torn into pieces...

Insomnia

2009-07-13T03:48:00.004+08:00

I guess that I just couldn't get rid of you.

-Defeated-

Dear Sis

2009-07-13T02:02:00.003+08:00

I do not wish you to walk out of my life anymore.

Simply because that

I love you, like I always do.

Ultraviolet Catastrophe by The Drop

2009-07-10T23:03:00.003+08:00

I want this album badly.

-Desire-

Goodbye June2009

2009-07-08T23:43:00.004+08:00

Long Lost Passport

2009-07-06T04:56:00.003+08:00

Those that did updating my current occurrence definitely knew that I was searching for my passport since I moved to the new roof in May. I had been searching around for almost two months long yet I couldn't catch it anywhere around my new house and back to my hometown. I even came to the final decision to make a police report to apply for a new passport. Simply because I don't want to screw up my travel plans end of the year to Bangkok, Vietnam and Cambodia. I am longing for a vacation and extremely excited about the backpacking around Vietnam and Cambodia with Yee Guan in November.

Guess it is my lucky day tonight. I just having a really bad and completely sleepless night. Thus, I tried to search around in bedroom, having a little hope that I might catch it somewhere in the end of the day. Thank God that I finally found it in a box together with my notes and journals... *Wink*

Breathing

2009-07-03T20:12:00.004+08:00

Sometimes I would just lay beside you and watch you sleep.
Then I would check to see if you are still breathing.

And I am doing this every now and then...

Purple Witch

2009-07-01T17:38:00.004+08:00

You lend me shoulders when I was depressed last time.
And I miss you so so much that I wish you would be here this time while I am losing the tracks.

Maybe I am just a little down.
Maybe I just needed someone to talk to.

Guess I depended on you, too much.

Abnormal

2009-07-01T02:39:00.002+08:00

I am trying hard not to fall into pieces.

Wondering why you could just acting like this.

You make it seems so easy and normal continue to move on.
And I am the one that so abnormal after all.

I think I am. Yes I am...

Same Mistake by James Blunt

2009-06-28T18:52:00.000+08:00

Saw the world turning in my sheets and once again I cannot sleep.

Walk out the door and up the street; look at the stars beneath my feet.

Remember rights that I did wrong, so here I go.

Hello, hello. There is no place I cannot go.

My mind is muddy but my heart is heavy. Does it show?

I lose the track that loses me, so here I go.

And so I sent some men to fight, and one came back at dead of night.

Said he'd seen my enemy. Said he looked just like me,

So I set out to cut myself and here I go.

I'm not calling for a second chance,

I'm screaming at the top of my voice.

Give me reason but don't give me choice.

'Cause I'll just make the same mistake again.

And maybe someday we will meet, and maybe talk and not just speak.

Don't buy the promises 'cause, there are no promises I keep.

And my reflection troubles me, so here I go.

I'm not calling for a second chance,

I'm screaming at the top of my voice.

Give me reason but don't give me choice.

'Cause I'll just make the same mistake,

I'm not calling for a second chance,

I'm screaming at the top of my voice.

Give me reason but don't give me choice.

'Cause I'll just make the same mistake again.

Saw the world turning in my sheets and once again I cannot sleep.

Walk out the door and up the street; look at the stars.

Look at the stars fall down.

And wonder where did I go wrong.

Whisky

2009-06-27T21:17:00.004+08:00

Den, sorry I drank it without you.
I guess I shall not quit to drink.

I miss how it smells when it gets into my throat.
I miss how it makes me buzz and lessen the pain deep inside my heart.
And I miss you, too.

Childhood by Michael Jackson

2009-06-27T18:14:00.003+08:00

Written and Composed by Michael Jackson
Produced by Michael Jackson

Have you seen my Childhood?
I'm searching for the world that I come from
'Cause I've been looking around
In the lost and found of my heart...
No one understands me
They view it as such strange eccentricities...
'Cause I keep kidding around
Like a child, but pardon me...

People say I'm not okay
'Cause I love such elementary things...
It's been my fate to compensate,
for the Childhood
I've never known...

Have you seen my Childhood?
I'm searching for that wonder in my youth
Like pirates in adventurous dreams,
Of conquest and kings on the throne...

Before you judge me, try hard to love me,
Look within your heart then ask,
Have you seen my Childhood?

People say I'm strange that way
'Cause I love such elementary things,
It's been my fate to compensate,
for the Childhood (Childhood) I've never known...

Have you seen my Childhood?
I'm searching for that wonder in my youth
Like fantastical stories to share
But the dreams I would dare, watch me fly...

Before you judge me, try hard to love me.
The painful youth I've had

Have you seen my Childhood....

*R.I.P. MJ

Renouncement

2009-06-26T16:17:00.008+08:00

I promise myself, that I would not fall into this kinda condition anymore.

I would not repeat those words that I used to tell you, those things that I used to share with you. You would be rested under my skin for just a short period of time.

And I shall let you go, eventually.

-Learning to forget-

Deary

2009-06-25T23:58:00.004+08:00

If anyone ever break your heart, then I would take you with me.
And I forbid them to get in touch with you.

You do not deserve to be treated in this way.

Broken Trust

2009-06-25T23:17:00.007+08:00

I trusted you for so damn long and just found that you've been lied to my face! How dare you do this to me?

I thought that you know what is good for you and you are not gonna ruin your own life. But now what I noticed is those I dislike the most. How could you let me down after I put all my trust in you?

I was asking you that night the question that I hesitated for so long, simply because I don't want to misunderstand and I don't feel like trusting what they said about you. You gave me the answer that I ever hope for and I wanted to stand my ground firmly, believe in everything that you told me.

But now, I feel like an idiot. I don't even know how to look at you anymore.

My Precious Moments

2009-06-25T00:38:00.003+08:00

Nothing gonna bring us down, as long as we believe in each other, as long as you always stand by my side.

Let's us have faith...

My Missing Brother

2009-06-18T23:12:00.006+08:00

I think this is the 2nd time I blog about him.
He rarely calls, rarely texts me...

But when things with regards to his PS3, PSP, his dream lappie Sony Vaio, new SE mobile phone, when he wanna ask my opinion to get a maxis or celcom broadband, or maybe P1 Wimax and so forth, then he probably would text me, like just now. He was trying to tell me that he finally subcribe to P1 Wimax RM99 per month and his PS3 working really fine with it. So he wonders whether he should buy the Vaio lappie right now...

I never meet him for ages, not even during CNY.
I think he is trying to runaway from me, to get a new SE phone or maybe a new Vaio lappie...

I need a new SE phone I think, since my current phone started having some problems. So I am wishing my brother change his phone rather than get a lappie.

*fingers crossing*

Waiting

2009-06-17T01:48:00.003+08:00

You were asking me to wait for a while.

So I've been wait, and waited for quite a while. And I guess I am waiting still at the moment. I am wondering whether I shall watch a movie while waiting for you. Of course it has to be my all-time favourite...

Before I get to a decision, I received your text. Perhaps I don't have time for the movie anymore. Since I no longer waiting... (",)

Fulled

2009-06-17T00:38:00.004+08:00

After the barbeque that we were having at Kelly's house last night
After accompanied by Chia Shin to the Sushi King that I long for at Queensbay just now

I think my stomach trying to tell me that

She's extremely being FULLED

Oh God
Now I need to kick my ass and get the diet plan started...

Vanished

2009-06-14T00:51:00.004+08:00

Why don't you hate me?
For any reason that I make u mad...

Then certainly I would hating myself for doing so.
And I would walk out of it, eventually.

Like vanished on the earth in a sudden.
Like I never existed in your world.

Unspeakable

2009-06-13T02:44:00.003+08:00

My landlord called and asked me to stay until end of July then she gonna start renovation to the unit. So I shall move out in August by all means. *sigh* Have to search for a new room and gonna move all my stuff to a new house. Kinda tiring since I got lotsa collections...

I'd been rushing back hometown and Penang several times within past few weeks. For God sake I did nothing for my proposal still. I do not wish to stay longer at Penang sometimes. It makes me sick all the time when I recalled those people that I ever met, those that indeed hurting me. So I promised that I would fly away one day, far away from here...

I do know that we couldn't have real serious relationship. But I was mad if you never been serious with me after what you've been done to both of us.

Feel like I couldn't uttered a single word, right now.

I am sorry.

Piece of You

2009-06-13T02:35:00.002+08:00

GoodbYe@Converse

2009-06-12T00:23:00.003+08:00

Before you cut me into pieces

I decided to walk out of your life...

FCUK

2009-06-07T17:38:00.003+08:00

I am good as long as you are by my side.

Heavy

2009-06-05T20:42:00.003+08:00

I wish I could take all the trifles to heart. But I am afraid that it might be too heavy for me to move on, if you ever walk out of my life...

-Perturbed-

Love you to bits and pieces

2009-06-02T00:29:00.002+08:00

Updated

2009-06-01T22:33:00.003+08:00

I finally ended the Estee Lauder promotion and back to my lovely hometown taking care of babe. And I just realised that I slimmed down to 52kg due to the part-time job. Anyway, it doesn't mean that I already back to the normal weight... I know Sis would still nagging about it since I gained a lot of weight in a short span of time two years back.

Babe doesn't like me I guess. Sometimes she acts like she loves me the most, but sometimes she treats me like she hates me the most on the earth. So I was wondering how she viewed me in her little brown eyes, and which episode that she might recalled about me when she grown up... I guess it should be the worse part of me that keep haunting her day by day. Well...at last she fallen into slumber right beside my bed after the struggled to runaway from me. I love her, she should have understand...

I lost my passport after moving to the new roof. I'd been searching around the new room and back to my hometown but couldn't catch it still... Hopefully it wouldn't screw up all my plans end of the year.

Don't know what I am heading to... feels like I am not going anywhere in the end of the day... *sighing*

Estee Lauder Model Search 2009

2009-05-26T08:42:00.003+08:00

I am currently working for Estee Lauder Model Search at Queensbay Mall, Penang from 25th until 31st May.

Wondering it is going to be the last part time job that I ever get before I am graduate...

Anyway, feel free to pay me a visit here^^

Taking chances by Celine Dion

2009-05-22T02:09:00.003+08:00

Don't know much about your life.
Don't know much about your world, but
Don't want to be alone tonight,
On this planet they call earth.

You don't know about my past, and
I don't have a future figured out.
And maybe this is going too fast.
And maybe it's not meant to last,

But what do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?
Never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say,
What do you say?

I just want to start again,
And maybe you could show me how to try,
And maybe you could take me in,
Somewhere underneath your skin?

What do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?

Never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say,
What do you say?

And I had my heart beaten down,
But I always come back for more, yeah.
There's nothing like love to pull you up,
When you're laying down on the floor there.
So talk to me, talk to me,
Like lovers do.
Yeah walk with me, walk with me,
Like lovers do,
Like lovers do.

What do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?
Never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say,
What do you say?

Don't know much about your life
And I don't know much about your world

Team Hoyt, Rick and Dick

2009-05-21T23:06:00.006+08:00

Watch this and this, I was totally mess up after watch the videos and read the story about the pair of father and son.

I salute the father for everything he did for his son and may God bless them always.

Defeated

2009-05-21T09:39:00.003+08:00

It is raining out here, in a sudden. I was like spending my whole world upside down in the past few months. Totally have no idea of what I was actually dealing with studies and the passion of live... Even now that I am feeling blue, still.

I have to make sure that I am going to pass the dissertation within 6 months once I registered in the coming July. And I am freaking scared about it since I don't even know what am I supposed to do for the research. That is the weakness part of me that keep holding me backwards and I just couldn't help but falling gradually day by day.

I am not deserved to be here.

I hate to think about it, but I just couldn't quit to think of it, once and once again.

SecReT GarDeN

Yesterday

绕圈圈

Crocodile Tale

New Chapter :)

You don't have to

Deutsch ♥

I am BacK

Thank You

Freedom

Tempted

Soul searching

Make believe

Missed Flight@LCCT Terminal

Apologise

你的眼泪

With Y O U

You&Me

Hello

June 2009@2010

祝福你

I Never Told You

My Words for Myself

Expiry Date

The Old Me

自我保护

You are young. I was wrong.

Moody

To My Storyteller

Guardian Angel

习惯寂寞

如果没有你 莫文蔚

Imitator

BirthdaY GreeTing

Weirdness

Miss Dependent

Always on My Mind by Elvis Presley

New Possession

Tell me

Your Smile

爱多少早知道 殷悦

Not to cry, one last time.

You got Me

It used to be Y O U

Dreams Together

Underneath anger is hurt, but underneath hurt is love

Drunken Night

Happy New Year 2010

Not Myself

Apologise

I Know You Miss Her

Talking to myself

-G-E-E-K-

真挚的笑容

Hello

Vampire Geeks

Nonsense

Blessed

Emotional

Officially Brain Dead

Terribly Busy

Homesick

御宅族

燃烧 by 孙楠

The best part of the week

Memories

The Pieces Don't Fit Anymore by James Morrison

Mind-wandering

Yasmin Ahmad

Me@Converse

ILL-TiMeD

Insomnia

Dear Sis

Ultraviolet Catastrophe by The Drop

Goodbye June2009

Long Lost Passport

Breathing

Purple Witch

Abnormal

Same Mistake by James Blunt

如果没有你莫文蔚

爱多少早知道殷悦